This is getting scary. You mention "rainbow colors machinery of humanity". Have you, or to anyone reading this, have by any chance hallucinated a spiral machinery of rainbow colors cubes crunching inward as it spirals towards itself? I received this image during a massive m-hole, essentially the universe was exposing itself to me in the form of this vision, a machine like rainbow spiral crushing inward on itself.
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I realize this sounds totally bat shit insane to be most, however in my mind this truth is absolute. I am god, just as you are god, just as everything around us is ourselves observing ourselves.