yepyepwoah
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well I took a total of around 110mg DPT and 100 mg MXE last night, all plugged except an initial dose of 25mg mxe taken orally. Capped it off with 50mg DMT at the tail end.
DPT and mxe were lovely. Nothing like I remembered for the DPT, then again I wasn't smoking marijuana this time and I feel that makes a big difference. DMT was perhaps one of he most terrifying experiences of my life. To the point that I immediatly forgot it. I took notes, bits and pieces remain. The summation is, don't ask for the truth of reality/existance because it just might not be what you are wanting or expecting. I realized I had been at that experience many times before, and continue to forget because otherwise this game we call life/existance/reality isn't worth playing. It was unlike any DMT report I can ever recall reading... I am honesly still at a loss as to describe it. No entities, no elves, no nothing. Just an immediate dissapearance of the veil seperating this reality. I have never really wanted a trip sitter before, but I am not sure I would do DMT again without one. A voice not my own encouraging me to go with it and that it would end might have done wonders to me gaining more from this experience.
THe ironic/fucked thing is I woke up with he desire to go back and try again. from what truly is, and the most abjectly terrifying exposure to "truth" I can imagine.
I will hopefully write up a full report in the next few days. THe DPT aspect is definaly worth sharing as well. I wouldn't classify it as "cold", but neutral. Allowed me to see my faults and things I need to work on (which is waht I asked for). I accepted them and contemplated how to live my day to day life better instead of running and hiding from them. I can see how it could have been a more "negative" experience if my attitude had been different.
DPT and mxe were lovely. Nothing like I remembered for the DPT, then again I wasn't smoking marijuana this time and I feel that makes a big difference. DMT was perhaps one of he most terrifying experiences of my life. To the point that I immediatly forgot it. I took notes, bits and pieces remain. The summation is, don't ask for the truth of reality/existance because it just might not be what you are wanting or expecting. I realized I had been at that experience many times before, and continue to forget because otherwise this game we call life/existance/reality isn't worth playing. It was unlike any DMT report I can ever recall reading... I am honesly still at a loss as to describe it. No entities, no elves, no nothing. Just an immediate dissapearance of the veil seperating this reality. I have never really wanted a trip sitter before, but I am not sure I would do DMT again without one. A voice not my own encouraging me to go with it and that it would end might have done wonders to me gaining more from this experience.
THe ironic/fucked thing is I woke up with he desire to go back and try again. from what truly is, and the most abjectly terrifying exposure to "truth" I can imagine.
I will hopefully write up a full report in the next few days. THe DPT aspect is definaly worth sharing as well. I wouldn't classify it as "cold", but neutral. Allowed me to see my faults and things I need to work on (which is waht I asked for). I accepted them and contemplated how to live my day to day life better instead of running and hiding from them. I can see how it could have been a more "negative" experience if my attitude had been different.