Finally wrapping my own thick head around the dark side of this material. I have seen the line between the good and the bad, maybe even crossed it but just been spared from tragedy. I'm not sure that for me it will be possible to take advantage of its benefits without the risk of something going terribly wrong. I'm finally able to harness that wonderful hypomania and the beautiful afterglow, but I definitely get the feeling that with both of my positive experiences a train wreck has been right around the corner. For the record, I have a somewhat undeserved moderately strong tolerance to dissociatives (ie. I take larger doses than most casual users).
I never finished my last write up, but it was a very rewarding experience with ~30mg. In the days after the experience, I was able to make considerable headway towards a long overdue change in career. However, the difference between that 30mg experience and my previous trial at 25mg was of an order of magnitude. It came on within 30 minutes and I became stuck on the idea of taking 5mg of 4-AcO-DMT to add a little tryptamine magic to the experience. It took me forever to find what I was looking for, and by the time I had all of my equipment ready to go, spatial distortion and loss of motor coordination made it impossible to weigh out an accurate dose. To this day I'm not sure if I actually took the tryptamine or not, but I'm about 80% sure I ended up taking 15mg (which is three times my originally intended dose and usually a very strong experience for me). I have a vague recollection of licking the powder off my weighing tray which is bizarre because I detest the taste of tryptamines.
Last night I had another go at 15mg towards the end of an 18 hour day of poly drug use. Some two hours after taking the 3-MeO-PCP once again I found myself in the position of wanting to take more drugs that I hadn't planned on. Suddenly I was in the kitchen with my vial of 2mg/ml DOC solution trying to measure out 800ug. If you look at my post history last night, you can sort of follow the jumps in logic that occurred there.
I was responding to a thread about combining MDMA and acid, wherein I commented on my lack of success in combining benzofurans with DOC. This lead to a post in the DOC B&D about threshold doses of DOC (now mostly sober I'm kind of proud at how coherent those posts came out, but each took me probably half an hour of one-eyed squinting at the screen to compose). Now I knew it was time for me to get to bed (as I said, this was near the end of an 18 hour day) and I had plans for today that would leave me with only about four-six hours of sleep for the night. My insane reasoning for taking the DOC microdose was that the long onset and subtle effects of a low dose would have me perking right up at around the time I was supposed to wake up today.
^Total batshit. Fortunately, spatial distortion, loss of motor control, and the inability to calculate the volume needed for 800ug from a 2mg/ml solution left me unable to dose the DOC. Since DOC is not a drug I care to recklessly ingest three times the intended amount of, the will to survive prevailed and I went to bed. I still have no problems sleeping on 3-MeO-PCP, regardless of the dose.
My point to all this is that yes, there is a strong urge to redose this drug at higher doses. Depending on what is available to you, there may be a strong urge to combine with other drugs. Disinhibition is great and judgement is severely impaired. Somatic effects of the drug make accurate dosing of materials while under the influence very problematic, if not impossible. Exercise extreme caution and take all necessary precautions before undertaking the experience: a knowledgeable trip sitter is highly recommended, any additional dugs intended to be taken should be weighed out or measured in advance, and it's probably a good idea to store your stash somewhere you won't be able to get it (preferably under lock and key in someone else's care so you don't shamble about in public trying to dig up your stash box from beneath a tree out back).