Well, that was an interesting experience... I think that might be one of the oddest things ive ever taken, wacky it certainly is!
I didn't take much, 100 mg on the first day, split into two, once at 13.00 then again at around 16.00.
Firstly i noticed that i didn't have to run to the loo like id read i might, i was a little disappointed, ive been taking bupe for so long that i was kind of looking forward to be able to go, lol.
It kicked in relatively quickly, id say within 20 minutes but i hardly ever eat anything so that might be why. It certainly helps with fatigue, wasn't tired once which was great.
On the first day it didn't do much for my ability to read, cleared my mind a little, well not really cleared but quietened it down a bit which was pleasant. I noticed that i could definitely concentrate on one thing and not get distracted as easily, unfortunately it was the wrong thing (spent the day reading Bluelight, so not wasted but no essay completed...). Note for next time.. get your shit together first! Oh, and for the most part it actually made me feel pretty good, happy and calm which was great!
It did get a little weird later on though, i noticed a little bit of aggression/annoyance after my second 50mg but that passed quickly once i realised and got it in check. I oddly had no trouble sleeping at all (didn't even need the diphenhydramine), although it did kick off sleep paralysis a couple of times which is never fun
. I also had a funny (both sorts) dream that this little cartoon guy (kind of looked like a minion) with a hammer was running around in my brain fixing my neurons, tbh i was rooting for him but perhaps he wasn't in there for long enough.. Oh well, there's always next time!
I took 50mg again the next day at around 15.00 and that was pretty good, i got work done and I've even managed to read half a chapter of a book which is pretty unbelievable for me so im happy. If i could increase on that it would be awesome. Didn't take any on the third day but still felt a little different and got work done too! Back to normal on the fourth day.
As for the interactions with the bupe, i waited till after 19.00 before i took it, which is normally a little late for me as it can make me a bit hyper. Well, i crapped myself, i thought it had kicked it off (which im pretty sure it cant), i felt pretty weird and was freaking out a little, but i managed to calm myself down and just ride it out. I had no wd's but i didn't get my usual buzz that i get from the bupe, which was a bit shit and put me off. Also putting me off was the fact that i had to stop my propanolol, which i don't enjoy taking but i take for occasional episodes of svt. The second night i had a too hot bath and my heart was racing like mad. Managed to stop it myself though so it was okay, but that can get a bit scary. Not sure if it was the hot bath, the moda, the lack of propanolol (which is slow release so should've lasted a while after my last dose anyway) or a combination of them..
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I didn't write my last post correctly, my apologies. I take everything prescribed but the modafinil which i got elsewhere, oh and the diphenhydramine which i buy from the chemist. I'm getting desperate, im paying for a degree which i can't complete because i can't read. Am in my second year, have already had to resit my first, i need to sort myself out so i can complete the degree to the best of my ability and not throw my money away!
I think there may be potential for me and modafinil but i am going to go and let the doctor know exactly what is going on and see if they are willing to help me first. I no longer get treated at the au and see my GP instead and she's normally pretty good although she knows nothing about buprenorphine and relies on me to lead the way, most of the time anyway. I'm not sure how she's going to feel about prescribing me more meds though...
Thanks for the advice
, i shall mention that when i go to see her.