Readyforchange1111
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Hi hope this is ok to post and in right place
I recently had my first psilocybin experience, 5 days ago. 1.5g cubes lemon tek.. im on no medication at all and I’ve just had a bit of depression and anxiety mental health wise.. and despite it being a terrifying trip, I’m not put off and am going back,I know it’s my time to evolve.. there’s one thing bothering me though that I’d like some advice on.
Whilst tripping a deep regret/shame came up, and the message behind it came as ‘you don’t deserve to live kill yourself’
I snapped myself out of it momentarily and anxiety went through the roof that I’d lose control of my physical body and kill myself , or that I’d been possessed, or had something implanted to at some point in the near future kill myself.
I have no plans to btw I’m not suicidal and I don’t want to be ..and I’ve been looking at the trauma that arose and I am starting to forgive myself..
my question is is that a possibility? To become suicidal from another trip ?? If I approach my next trip correctly and safely with a Sober trip sitter out in nature and willing to surrender.. what’s the likelihood that I come round from the trip suicidal..? has anybody had anything like where I’m at atm before..?
Tia xx
I recently had my first psilocybin experience, 5 days ago. 1.5g cubes lemon tek.. im on no medication at all and I’ve just had a bit of depression and anxiety mental health wise.. and despite it being a terrifying trip, I’m not put off and am going back,I know it’s my time to evolve.. there’s one thing bothering me though that I’d like some advice on.
Whilst tripping a deep regret/shame came up, and the message behind it came as ‘you don’t deserve to live kill yourself’
I snapped myself out of it momentarily and anxiety went through the roof that I’d lose control of my physical body and kill myself , or that I’d been possessed, or had something implanted to at some point in the near future kill myself.
I have no plans to btw I’m not suicidal and I don’t want to be ..and I’ve been looking at the trauma that arose and I am starting to forgive myself..
my question is is that a possibility? To become suicidal from another trip ?? If I approach my next trip correctly and safely with a Sober trip sitter out in nature and willing to surrender.. what’s the likelihood that I come round from the trip suicidal..? has anybody had anything like where I’m at atm before..?
Tia xx
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