hi guys
i've been hooked on opiates of various kinds for a while. they've been a part of my life since i got my wisdom teeth out at about 13, use ramped up when i was about 22, and by 23 i was taking ~40 mg of oxy a day (i'm 25 now, btw). switched to heroin when the oxys got too pricey, and for the past 9 months or i've been doing between .3g and 1g of h a day (IVed). tried to kick it cold turkey a couple times and failed miserably. about 2 months ago i hopped on suboxone with the intent of tapering off, but before I knew it I was iving the stuff. part of it was just to conserve the drug--i never got a prescription and could really only get 5 strips every couple weeks. i started off at about 1 mg ived per day and instead of tapering down, tapered UP to 2 mg/day. this was mostly because life started getting very stressful for various reasons and i needed the extra boost (job interview among other things, which i got, so money won't be an issue at least). a few days ago i decided to take a break from the subs and picked up some pills (dilaudid) and H.
this was probably a stupid idea, but i felt that i had fucked up by staying on the subs so long and wanted to avoid the infamously drawn out withdrawal. my idea was basically to switch to fast acting opiates long enough to 'kick' the subs, then switch back to them (sublingual this time, i'm pretty sure i started to fuck up my lungs by IVing the strips) and do a fast 1-2 week long taper, and finally fucking kick.
anyone ever try anything like this? do you think i've got any chance of making it work, or am I just kidding myself? if i am, do you have any better ideas? i really want to put this shit behind me, opiates have eaten up close to a year of my life at this point. any help at all would be greatly appreciated. thanks.
i've been hooked on opiates of various kinds for a while. they've been a part of my life since i got my wisdom teeth out at about 13, use ramped up when i was about 22, and by 23 i was taking ~40 mg of oxy a day (i'm 25 now, btw). switched to heroin when the oxys got too pricey, and for the past 9 months or i've been doing between .3g and 1g of h a day (IVed). tried to kick it cold turkey a couple times and failed miserably. about 2 months ago i hopped on suboxone with the intent of tapering off, but before I knew it I was iving the stuff. part of it was just to conserve the drug--i never got a prescription and could really only get 5 strips every couple weeks. i started off at about 1 mg ived per day and instead of tapering down, tapered UP to 2 mg/day. this was mostly because life started getting very stressful for various reasons and i needed the extra boost (job interview among other things, which i got, so money won't be an issue at least). a few days ago i decided to take a break from the subs and picked up some pills (dilaudid) and H.
this was probably a stupid idea, but i felt that i had fucked up by staying on the subs so long and wanted to avoid the infamously drawn out withdrawal. my idea was basically to switch to fast acting opiates long enough to 'kick' the subs, then switch back to them (sublingual this time, i'm pretty sure i started to fuck up my lungs by IVing the strips) and do a fast 1-2 week long taper, and finally fucking kick.
anyone ever try anything like this? do you think i've got any chance of making it work, or am I just kidding myself? if i am, do you have any better ideas? i really want to put this shit behind me, opiates have eaten up close to a year of my life at this point. any help at all would be greatly appreciated. thanks.