Hello,
I am new here and slightly desperate.
I have been snorting heroin for almost a year now. Obviously what started as an occasional habit now completely controls my life.
I currently use a .3 about every 2-3 days. Less than that if I decide to binge out.
Over the summer I went through 24 hours of pure agony and hell when I ran out while on vacation. I have actually never experienced pain like that along with huge waves of hot and cold chills. I literally thought I was going to die. I was using a lot more then though than I am now.
I began cutting back after that and have continued to try and do that but I am terrified of what quitting entails. I can go almost 20 hours before I really start feeling like I just cannot function normally. I have hidden this very well and consider myself a "functioning addict". I work full time weekend 12 hour shifts and I am a single parent of 3 children ages 11 9 and 2 so I honestly have no time to be sick. I also have been nervous about seeking out any sort of professional help for this because I don't want my children to be taken away from me or any form of legal action or process to be started or brought against me. I suffer from terrible depression and anxiety which led to my using in the first place. I did however recently receive a prescription for 50mg Zoloft (about 2 weeks ago) in hopes of helping my mental state.
What would be your best advice to me as far as weening and reducing WD symptoms? I don't feel like I have a whole lot of options. I feel trapped and scared and lost and I just want to live a life where I am not controlled by this any longer. I want to remember who I am. Sorry for such a long post I just felt it was necessary to get it all out in hopes of finding some real, solid helpful advice.
Thank you all!
I am new here and slightly desperate.
I have been snorting heroin for almost a year now. Obviously what started as an occasional habit now completely controls my life.
I currently use a .3 about every 2-3 days. Less than that if I decide to binge out.
Over the summer I went through 24 hours of pure agony and hell when I ran out while on vacation. I have actually never experienced pain like that along with huge waves of hot and cold chills. I literally thought I was going to die. I was using a lot more then though than I am now.
I began cutting back after that and have continued to try and do that but I am terrified of what quitting entails. I can go almost 20 hours before I really start feeling like I just cannot function normally. I have hidden this very well and consider myself a "functioning addict". I work full time weekend 12 hour shifts and I am a single parent of 3 children ages 11 9 and 2 so I honestly have no time to be sick. I also have been nervous about seeking out any sort of professional help for this because I don't want my children to be taken away from me or any form of legal action or process to be started or brought against me. I suffer from terrible depression and anxiety which led to my using in the first place. I did however recently receive a prescription for 50mg Zoloft (about 2 weeks ago) in hopes of helping my mental state.
What would be your best advice to me as far as weening and reducing WD symptoms? I don't feel like I have a whole lot of options. I feel trapped and scared and lost and I just want to live a life where I am not controlled by this any longer. I want to remember who I am. Sorry for such a long post I just felt it was necessary to get it all out in hopes of finding some real, solid helpful advice.
Thank you all!