DerDiebKommt
Bluelighter
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- Apr 11, 2016
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Hi everyone so for the past year and a half or so I have been smoking week pretty much everyday straight with occasional t-breaks lasting a couple or few days which started to happen beginning in April.
For the past week I have completely stopped my weed and drug use and was experimenting more and more with Xanax for a good month prior to it, taking it about once to three times a week for about a month, mostly with other people but sometimes alone, only taking more than 2mg on two occasions which I don't really even like.
I have social anxiety, bipolar disorder, and possibly OCD and weed used to help with it but now I realize it is only making it worse, so I am trying to completely cease my use of it. I used to smoke weed all the time even when I was alone. I am starting to think weed is much more worse for you than science says for some reason, but maybe this is just in my case, it seems my life is starting to get better and more clearer ever since I started taking those t-breaks, and this week has been one of the most clarity I've had in a while.
However, all my friends enjoy toking and I used to toke daily with them. Due to Summer we haven't been hanging out daily and I've been trying to relax because I know if I'm with them I will probably start toking as I don't want to be the only one not high as it's a bit awkward.
My plan is to only do drugs now when I'm with others who are also participating. I plan on never doing weed again, or rarely if anything. I realize alcohol is way worse for you than Xanax and I have thought to myself what would the difference be if I drank once to three times a week (which I used to do before I started smoking, and the aftermath of Xanax is WAY BETTER than the aftermath of alcohol) to if I took Xanax once to three times a week for social recreational purposes. My plan is to start only taking one 2mg Xanax (obviously not mixed with anything else) when I'm with them and to only hang out one to three times a week while we're doing drugs.
Due to social norms which are fucking retarded in my opinion, people see doing one Xanax bar as way worse as getting drunk, and I know I can handle my Xanax intake the same as I did with alcohol, I see weed more addicting honestly. This is also better for me financially as it would only cost me about $5-$15 a week instead of $40-80. I am very intelligent, which is what all my peers, teachers, and practically everyone I know says, they just think I do not work the hardest I can, and I think weed might be the problem too as this was never the case while I was drinking...
tl;dr: used to think weed was good, now i realize it's bad. taking one 2mg bar once to three times a week safe? safer than drinking the same amount of time? would i get addicted physically? thanks.
For the past week I have completely stopped my weed and drug use and was experimenting more and more with Xanax for a good month prior to it, taking it about once to three times a week for about a month, mostly with other people but sometimes alone, only taking more than 2mg on two occasions which I don't really even like.
I have social anxiety, bipolar disorder, and possibly OCD and weed used to help with it but now I realize it is only making it worse, so I am trying to completely cease my use of it. I used to smoke weed all the time even when I was alone. I am starting to think weed is much more worse for you than science says for some reason, but maybe this is just in my case, it seems my life is starting to get better and more clearer ever since I started taking those t-breaks, and this week has been one of the most clarity I've had in a while.
However, all my friends enjoy toking and I used to toke daily with them. Due to Summer we haven't been hanging out daily and I've been trying to relax because I know if I'm with them I will probably start toking as I don't want to be the only one not high as it's a bit awkward.
My plan is to only do drugs now when I'm with others who are also participating. I plan on never doing weed again, or rarely if anything. I realize alcohol is way worse for you than Xanax and I have thought to myself what would the difference be if I drank once to three times a week (which I used to do before I started smoking, and the aftermath of Xanax is WAY BETTER than the aftermath of alcohol) to if I took Xanax once to three times a week for social recreational purposes. My plan is to start only taking one 2mg Xanax (obviously not mixed with anything else) when I'm with them and to only hang out one to three times a week while we're doing drugs.
Due to social norms which are fucking retarded in my opinion, people see doing one Xanax bar as way worse as getting drunk, and I know I can handle my Xanax intake the same as I did with alcohol, I see weed more addicting honestly. This is also better for me financially as it would only cost me about $5-$15 a week instead of $40-80. I am very intelligent, which is what all my peers, teachers, and practically everyone I know says, they just think I do not work the hardest I can, and I think weed might be the problem too as this was never the case while I was drinking...
tl;dr: used to think weed was good, now i realize it's bad. taking one 2mg bar once to three times a week safe? safer than drinking the same amount of time? would i get addicted physically? thanks.