Swollow

[doofqueen]

Drifting away
Like a paper boat on a river
From who she was
There was more light once
This monster will soon
Swollow her for breakfast
Open the door and go
Sitting in a dark room
Yet the sun smiles
Hoping no one notices
The sabatage to her soul
To an even higher level
She never thought she would go
Doesnt she want to bloom?
Is she that scared to fail
That she becomes what shes not?
Another excuse
Warnings were ignored
Not her
Shes strong
Shes not like them
Shes smart
Shes aware
Ego filled bullshit
They said
Theres always a yet
She said not everything
Yes all was possible
Thats a crazy yet
Wont happen to her
She knows so much more
Be careful
Its sneaky
Its slow
She heard the stories
Instead of complying
She challenges it
Arrogant bitch
She'll show you
Now its shown her
It won
Only for now though
Another delusion?
Her masks are so good
Sometimes she belives them
The shame
The secrets
The untold lies
The avoidance of truth
Im great she says
When people enquire
And smiles so brighty
Yet her soul is crying
No one would be the wiser
She looks happy
Why would anyone question that?
Shes such an honest girl
What about now?
Her insides feel black
Fake she never was
Always open and real
She owned her darkness
Through her brave tears
Even with judgement
Now the darkness owns her

 

[herbavore]

Good description of how it happens.

 

[doofqueen]

My darkest moments... Hopefully long gone now