Ok, I have been on subs for about a year and a half (this time) and it "worked" (I smoked weed and took a benzo ocassionally) then in April/May shit hit the fan. My Pain really flared up (back) and I started ordering fent off the DN. Within a month I went from 300mcg shots for a mild buzz up to 5mgs probably max and even eyeballed one b/c I was so sick and didn't want to wait. Then after about four orders (probably close to 800mg to a gram) I had a 10 fold tolerance and had to do H for like 3 weeks before switching to subs again (I stayed off H for 12 days and had horrible night sweats still for 5 days). Now when I get money I buy dope as soon as I pay the minimal bills I have to pay. Then 3 weeks ago disaster struck- I ordered RC benzos and gave me and my wife 2mgs and 3mgs myself (used ethanol to do volumetric distribution- but the kpins I had been getting each month once or twice (like 15mgs on average and would take them in 2-3 days, and taking 3-4mgs at a time) had been cut off so I had no benzos for maybe 2 months. We basically blacked out and who knows what happened other than I end up in the hospital twice (don't remember being released) my wife once and my parents took the car back (so now my only option is the DN if I did want to do something- or RCs which I would never again assume "etizolam is roughly equivalent to alprazolam). Well, I see my new PCP and he sees my MRIs and talk to him and he knows I'm in real pain and have been looking for a way out and getting in trouble. He says if I go on the methadone clinic, give them 6 months clean urines and am stable, that I could be switched to a pain doc in his practice that prescribes methadone.
So I have my intake next wed, I would have a physical and be dosed the next monday. Now they always tell patients to stop their suboxone 72 hours before- and when you ask what to do they say "we can't say legally but just survive how you have been." Now from what I have read there is NO reason you can't go right from subs to methadone (it seems to be what anesthesiologists recommend when a bupe patient is facing surgery). So what do I do (keep in mind my daughter is not with me right now she is with my parents)- the way I see it my options are:
1. Save some money and order dope from the DN express so it comes around the time I need it. If it comes on time and lasts I know I will follow through.
2. What I did when I was on bupe, wanted dope later, but needed to wait. I would shoot the bupe (was doing this daily and would do it 3 days before the clinic this time). I know there are arguements about this but I do believe the inserts on the injectable that says it has a much shorter half-life this way- I am dead sick at most 6 hours after a shot and that is if I had been doing them like every 3 hours and fell asleep (pupils huge and everything). I could stick to this.
3. I get my clonidine and gabapentin scripts right before then and I could use bigger doses with some Immodium for GI stuff. Might be able to stick it out- but might fuck up and do something stupid.
4. The Immodium (loperimide cure)- never tried it, but heard it is harmful and have no idea how well it would work.
I'm leaning towards DN or bupe and saying I didn't take it.
So I have my intake next wed, I would have a physical and be dosed the next monday. Now they always tell patients to stop their suboxone 72 hours before- and when you ask what to do they say "we can't say legally but just survive how you have been." Now from what I have read there is NO reason you can't go right from subs to methadone (it seems to be what anesthesiologists recommend when a bupe patient is facing surgery). So what do I do (keep in mind my daughter is not with me right now she is with my parents)- the way I see it my options are:
1. Save some money and order dope from the DN express so it comes around the time I need it. If it comes on time and lasts I know I will follow through.
2. What I did when I was on bupe, wanted dope later, but needed to wait. I would shoot the bupe (was doing this daily and would do it 3 days before the clinic this time). I know there are arguements about this but I do believe the inserts on the injectable that says it has a much shorter half-life this way- I am dead sick at most 6 hours after a shot and that is if I had been doing them like every 3 hours and fell asleep (pupils huge and everything). I could stick to this.
3. I get my clonidine and gabapentin scripts right before then and I could use bigger doses with some Immodium for GI stuff. Might be able to stick it out- but might fuck up and do something stupid.
4. The Immodium (loperimide cure)- never tried it, but heard it is harmful and have no idea how well it would work.
I'm leaning towards DN or bupe and saying I didn't take it.