I agree , I have been on subs for almost 2 years now- pretty much tricked into taking it by the Dr who originally prescribed it- he told me it was a new medication that was better than the medication I was on which was still working at the time- ( 2 xr 15mg morphine daily and 2 5mg hydrocodone daily) and I was also there telling him how I was needing to schedule my injections and other procedures which when I was receiving these all regularly together I was doing fairly well and able to be much more active. However-I was genuinely In much more pain and suffering quite a lot frankly… especially after a few months waiting for this particular appointment- on a waiting list and being without the injections, the ketamine infusions, the Stellate ganglion blocks, and having been more restricted in mobility lately -
(an ER visit reference led me into his office with my siezure disorder-which is a rare condition; most often triggered by the intense pain various symptoms ,weakness ,hours of spasms in my spine from MVA injuries which leads to convulsions tonic clonic-partial / focal aware, petit and grand mal siezures epilepsy- , and due to the loss of a family member my transportation available changed so- a few circumstances for changing Drs)
So promptly and mischievously unfortunately for me -he managed to manipulate my open mindedness and willingness to do and try new ways to benefit myself. I had no idea what this meditation truly was and I had no idea that this jackass was also going to be flat out LYING to my insurance provider about a diagnosis so that he could get the medication approved!! I should have known something was amiss when I contacted my previous Dr and they had that totally surprised tone in their voice as I explained to them what this Dr had planned and the name of this medication. The original plan was for me to taper my medication in that week- but I misunderstood and got distracted and upset because I thought it was all of my medications.. and I was flipping out about my siezure meds already having an increase in them that weekend, so I returned to the Drs office the following week after and discussed with them how exactly all of the could work out. They offered me a treatment facility!!! I explained that I didn’t need a treatment facility because I had no problems with tapering myself and that I had spoken to my previous Doctor as well as my other doctors who had recommended that I taper over the month- the PA right away said this was more than agreed. Saying that the Dr didn’t realize that I had the support at home I needed- covering their butts I guess because my fiancé was in the room this time and insulted about the recommendation of a treatment center- I wish I had seen more clearly many of the things that happened with this Drs office instead of believing that I needed to work with them- but it’s like we’re all just called asdicts and seekers anyway and dr shopping. I suffered from an infection after an injection at this Drs office as well and suffered for months which they would not treat me for and denied ever having caused as well as never allowing me to get any other medication and now I never will because of this OUD on my records.. I’m screwed and never have abused any medication, this Suboxone is crap- it doesn’t work for chronic pain- I have RSD/CRPS, 3/4 places of spine injuries, spinal cord compression, s.I joint dysfunction, spondylitis, osteoarthritis, RA, siezure disorder, -that’s all my major issues
(Again- here now - I say if I truly ever had an OUD why was a provider I was with for years before willing to write a prescription for painkillers for a whole month after hearing about Suboxone being tried out? Opening herself up to lawsuits?)
I’ve never been so unhappy and exhausted and feeling like a zombie and slept so much in my life, I have no natural teeth left, no immune system left, no appetite left- I have started to feel like vomiting every time I have to take my dose- I’m on 2-3 strips a day, that’s newly increased from 2 strips a day when I once again reported that it’s not doing anything to help my pain and I’m bedridden unable to leave the house and be active for even an hour or two a day and not even normally intimate or taking care of myself as needed as normal and fed up. Why take the antidepressants they prescribe which I’m researching don’t actually help with chronic pain and fatigue like the doctors like to think and prescribe as if they do, I’ve literally done the research!! Why take the anti anxiety meds?! I’m so fatigued so out of energy and so depressed so depleted that I literally can’t manage to, taking anything that might add to the mood and feeling I’m experiencing would truly be so horrible. I’m a chic with a ton of energy normally, a ton of faith, a ton of drive, a chic who has always gotten through a lot and I’m very driven- very passionate- very compassionate about life, about others about myself about so many different things and in general I was always a very strong believer in getting up and getting going and pushing through mo matter what it took but I have been hit hard and knocked down and unable to get up at all for so long it’s unreal to me and unjust and insane and just totally cruel what is happening to so many of us. Seriously!! I can’t believe it- I’m an omnist and have found myself praying and meditating and just doing my best but there’s nothing that I can do to be better enough, this medication has truly made me feel horrible and has truly changed everything for the worse and I can’t imagine why they can’t just figure that out. There’s literally so many people suffering that should not have to who could be receiving treatment and could be easily tested and proving whatever- screening and imaging and all that stuff- not just stuck on this one size fits all crap- that’s how these epidemics get started just as much as any other problems the nation has faced- the mommy’s little helpers- diet pills , turned into an abused high school / college kids party drug and wanted legal speed , the devils grass- legalization and several uses for CBD even , the LSD craze- now ketamine therapy and microdosing finally - not to mention all the other substances im not listening because i don’t know anything about them and dont have any experience- in my own way I can honestly say that i never once thought of doing street drugs until now but i have recently wondered if i would be better off- because i have been in pain and suffering and what kind of life i have now is not the way i am ok with any way- but if it really is that people turned to the streets because they got cut off pain meds then maybe some people were truly suffering and didn’t deserve to be treated like they were treated and had no other options and understood quality of life can drive people to make choices sometimes that others could never understand or judge.
