Thank you both very kindly!
I'm really hoping I do have this licked. I'd be lying if I didn't admit to having considerable amount of thoughts going through my head trying to rationalize picking up some more, as I know they're available again through my sources. I don't want to give the impression that I'm above or past those trains of thought. Especially with the snow out and cold weather, what else sounds better than scoring some ops and losing myself in some TV or a video game?? Rhetorical, obviously . Also have that little devil on my shoulder telling me "Hey, look at all you've accomplished lately. You DESERVE a night to yourself wrapped in the warmth of an opiate blanket." It will certainly take time and reaffirmation of my resolve to retrain these patterns spinning behind my eyes. They say "A day at a time" for a reason.
-SK
STILLKICKIN!!!! YOU'RE ALIVE!
I'm so glad you're doing good and fighting the good fight.
I'm clean myself. No kratom, nothing!
It gets better man, I promise you.
Don't give up!
Much love to you, PM me anytime!
Hi Stillkickin and W0w! So nice to read your updates... keep up the good work! I am still on my prescribed meds, still anxious about the ever constant tightening up of policies at my pain clinic, but overall life is good. Looking forward to get togethers with good friends and family to celebrate the 4th with a bar b q and a great fireworks show sponsored by my little city I live in. Take care!
I'm glad you are still fighting. I'm on a new attempt myself lol. Love ya, baby xoxoxoxoxo
I started reading your thread and immediately indetified. I've lost a lot of enthusiasm for things since starting Oxy about 2 months ago. My evolution has been for chronic pain treatment, but also recreation. Vicodin lead to methadone which lead to morphine which lead to Oxy. I wish I had known what a soul thief this drug was!
The mist interesting thing I found was the kratom topic. Recently I've considered tapering, I just don't have the will power for that. I've also read a lot on here about subs , however I don't want to trade addictions. That is why the kratom was so exciting.
I've read about the help with WD which is truly exciting as I lose my mind, so to speak, when thinking about WD. I suffered CT WD once in rehab and never want that experience again!
I really like the thought of using kratom can you give more info about effects, benefits, dosages, anything really?
Good luck to you, the struggle may be long but the benefits are for a lifetime! I wish you all the best in your attempt!
Thank you for stopping in and sharing your side aplumgirl! I'm glad you were able to find some things to identify with ITT. That was a big purpose of me creating it.
WD's are ridiculous!! The mental side of it alone is tormenting, not to mention the physical.
With regards to Kratom. I have a mixed bag of emotions about it. It can truly be amazing to help bridge gaps, but that is the only thing I personally can recommend it for. I wouldn't recommend long term usage as it comes with its own issues. I've had very rough come-downs from it, especially with regards to the mental and RLS. That said, it has saved my ass on quite a few occasions. Initial dosage would depend on your current standard intake of opiates. I was at about 30-40mg of oxy when I tried 8 grams (read it somewhere). I didn't think it was helping until all of a sudden I realized that things were manageable. If you go in seeking a high from it, you're already on the wrong path IMHO. I truly believe it should only be a bridge to get you to the "other side".
I won't endorse subs unless absolutely necessary and most all other avenues have been exhausted. They can be a slippery slope with a much steeper cliff than other options, especially with how little they are understood by most healthcare professionals. My biggest piece of advice is to be as educated about every substance that you allow to enter your body. Stay vigilant in understanding your actions or your pursuit in understanding them. I think those things will give you the most insight into your own recovery.
Take care and feel free to post whenever ITT (in this thread)!
-SK
Need help! I'm detoxing off Morphine 60mg abg.. I currently take about a half to a whole 60mg a day.. I want and need a safe taper plan. Just found out I'm pregnant and I don't want to be on this and want to taper off before I go in to my first appointment. Any help would be greatly appreciated!! Please don't judge me and keep any rude comments to yourself!!! I don't want to be on this crap while pregnant and don't want to get on a different medication just to get off this crap! So please help me with a safe taper plan to get off.. Thanks