infectedmushroom
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Firstly apologies if this is more suited for blogs, I'm sure an admin will let me know.
So I rolled over new years, 100mg then 50mg an hour and a half later - on an (unfortunately) pretty full stomach. It took about 2 and a half hours to fully come up, and after the fireworks everyone was buzzing and I'd hit my peak. A friend put on a psy/trance/ambient artist and I entered a trance like introspective state. I don't think I've ever experienced MDMA in such a psychedelic way before. (YES it was tested.) I've rolled roughly 25 times in my life (I use pretty responsibly, I respect this chemical greatly after experiencing a nasty depressive episode from dosing to close.) Anyway this
morning I woke up around 4-5, which wasn't unexpected because my sleep is normally affected
a couple days after dropping. I lay awake for a while, despondent and moody that I was
Awake- until the music from the moment of
My peak filled my head, an I felt a warm rush fill my
Body. I guess one might call it a psychedelic flashback? I'd never experienced one with M before, only shrooms. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Because it literally put me back to sleep, I felt so soothed!
The other thing is normaly I get strong feelings of connectedness, openness and empathy during my roll - but not this time. I was definitely more open than normal, but this psychedelic/introspective aspect was stronger. It might have something to do with trying circumstances I'm experiencing at the moment. Anyway, normally I have a moderate afterglow from a good experience like this, but this time I actually feel MORE open and empathic and social than on the night. I think it's opened a door in a sense for me to connect.
Thanks for reading, just wondering on ya'lls thoughts/feelings
(and again apologies if this is more suited for blogs!) peace
So I rolled over new years, 100mg then 50mg an hour and a half later - on an (unfortunately) pretty full stomach. It took about 2 and a half hours to fully come up, and after the fireworks everyone was buzzing and I'd hit my peak. A friend put on a psy/trance/ambient artist and I entered a trance like introspective state. I don't think I've ever experienced MDMA in such a psychedelic way before. (YES it was tested.) I've rolled roughly 25 times in my life (I use pretty responsibly, I respect this chemical greatly after experiencing a nasty depressive episode from dosing to close.) Anyway this
morning I woke up around 4-5, which wasn't unexpected because my sleep is normally affected
a couple days after dropping. I lay awake for a while, despondent and moody that I was
Awake- until the music from the moment of
My peak filled my head, an I felt a warm rush fill my
Body. I guess one might call it a psychedelic flashback? I'd never experienced one with M before, only shrooms. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Because it literally put me back to sleep, I felt so soothed!
The other thing is normaly I get strong feelings of connectedness, openness and empathy during my roll - but not this time. I was definitely more open than normal, but this psychedelic/introspective aspect was stronger. It might have something to do with trying circumstances I'm experiencing at the moment. Anyway, normally I have a moderate afterglow from a good experience like this, but this time I actually feel MORE open and empathic and social than on the night. I think it's opened a door in a sense for me to connect.
Thanks for reading, just wondering on ya'lls thoughts/feelings
(and again apologies if this is more suited for blogs!) peace