RhythmSpring
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My situation is kind of complex.
A little background: I have rheumatoid arthritis, and I have found that tripping on mushrooms is helping get rid of it. The more I do, the less inflammation I have in my joints for up to a week after a trip. I'd like to think that the effect can be cumulative.
I also have a hunch that a purge is in store. I have a lot of feelings of energetic build-up in my chest, and I think that stuff needs to come out. I came close to purging on one or two recent trips, but nothing ever came out.
Lately, I've been experiencing lots of energy. So much energy that my heart is pounding throughout my body most of the day. My resting heart rate is pretty high (though I haven't measured it). I've even had a couple SVT episodes recently (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Supraventricular_tachycardia). My body wants to be active, but often the pain in my joints limits my activity.
I'm not sure whether I should trip alone or not. If I'm alone, I feel like I can go deeper within myself. But whenever I take mushrooms, I have this urge to connect with people in my life. I want to communicate with them, often while I'm tripping. Tripping with a friend has been lovely, but they are also a distraction from what's inside, and I notice myself transferring my psychological content onto them. Usually positive content, but still.
I'm a little afraid to dose big, although, I think that's what I need to do to break through some molds. The last time I dosed big, I had some scary chest sensations (fullness, lots and lots of energy that wasn't finding its way out) and I thought I was going to die... of ecstasy, but also inner tension. I wasn't sure if I needed to barf. Perhaps if I had a more omniverous diet, barfing would come more naturally. Right now it's pretty darn limited (fish, chicken liver, tahini, almond butter, sweet potato, rice, some beans, green vegetables... that's all I'm eating right now.) Oh, and I eat lots of salt. Hmm, maybe that's part of why my cardiac(?) system goes a little crazy. Maybe I need to cut down on salt before a trip. I notice that my salt cravings go down after a trip, and I believe that is connected to my joint inflammation going down, so, I think the mushrooms are helping in that regard.
If you think it's silly to be using mushrooms to address my health issues, please do not respond. I know I am onto something--it has helped me walk again, helped me play music again, etc. It really has been helping. I just have been hitting this point where I'm not sure how to safely continue. Also, I have tried almost everything else out there in terms of treating the RA. So please don't suggest something--I guarantee I've tried it. Short of helminithic therapy.
There are undoubtedly more details, but I though I'd throw this out there for now. Maybe there is something that I'm not seeing. Why do I have a ridiculous amount of energy? Is it the salt electrolytes in my nervous system? Is it my super clean/wholesome diet? Is it the fact that I haven't been truly physically active in such a long time? Is too much energy a problem in psychedelic trips? I tend to experience this energy on lower doses, though. Maybe if I dose higher, I'll have a more sedating trip? Agh, there are so many thoughts and possibilities of answers floating around that I'm not sure if there's a right one.
I'm open to any and all ideas, but I will also take everything with a grain of salt, as I usually do.
A little background: I have rheumatoid arthritis, and I have found that tripping on mushrooms is helping get rid of it. The more I do, the less inflammation I have in my joints for up to a week after a trip. I'd like to think that the effect can be cumulative.
I also have a hunch that a purge is in store. I have a lot of feelings of energetic build-up in my chest, and I think that stuff needs to come out. I came close to purging on one or two recent trips, but nothing ever came out.
Lately, I've been experiencing lots of energy. So much energy that my heart is pounding throughout my body most of the day. My resting heart rate is pretty high (though I haven't measured it). I've even had a couple SVT episodes recently (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Supraventricular_tachycardia). My body wants to be active, but often the pain in my joints limits my activity.
I'm not sure whether I should trip alone or not. If I'm alone, I feel like I can go deeper within myself. But whenever I take mushrooms, I have this urge to connect with people in my life. I want to communicate with them, often while I'm tripping. Tripping with a friend has been lovely, but they are also a distraction from what's inside, and I notice myself transferring my psychological content onto them. Usually positive content, but still.
I'm a little afraid to dose big, although, I think that's what I need to do to break through some molds. The last time I dosed big, I had some scary chest sensations (fullness, lots and lots of energy that wasn't finding its way out) and I thought I was going to die... of ecstasy, but also inner tension. I wasn't sure if I needed to barf. Perhaps if I had a more omniverous diet, barfing would come more naturally. Right now it's pretty darn limited (fish, chicken liver, tahini, almond butter, sweet potato, rice, some beans, green vegetables... that's all I'm eating right now.) Oh, and I eat lots of salt. Hmm, maybe that's part of why my cardiac(?) system goes a little crazy. Maybe I need to cut down on salt before a trip. I notice that my salt cravings go down after a trip, and I believe that is connected to my joint inflammation going down, so, I think the mushrooms are helping in that regard.
If you think it's silly to be using mushrooms to address my health issues, please do not respond. I know I am onto something--it has helped me walk again, helped me play music again, etc. It really has been helping. I just have been hitting this point where I'm not sure how to safely continue. Also, I have tried almost everything else out there in terms of treating the RA. So please don't suggest something--I guarantee I've tried it. Short of helminithic therapy.
There are undoubtedly more details, but I though I'd throw this out there for now. Maybe there is something that I'm not seeing. Why do I have a ridiculous amount of energy? Is it the salt electrolytes in my nervous system? Is it my super clean/wholesome diet? Is it the fact that I haven't been truly physically active in such a long time? Is too much energy a problem in psychedelic trips? I tend to experience this energy on lower doses, though. Maybe if I dose higher, I'll have a more sedating trip? Agh, there are so many thoughts and possibilities of answers floating around that I'm not sure if there's a right one.
I'm open to any and all ideas, but I will also take everything with a grain of salt, as I usually do.