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When i was around 15/16 years old i started smoking weed. I was young and (a little) naive, but of course at that age i wanted to try things out. When is smoked weed i became tense and self absorbedinstead of relaxed. My body felt tense but it calmed my mind. After some time i quit because i felt a little strange in my head and also a little tense in my body when i wasn't using anything.
A year later i took for the first time mdma (the quality was good and the amount was balanced, a friend of mine took exactly the same), i got exactly the same feeling when i was using weed. Self absorbed and feeling tense, not happy or joyous. I was deep in my own thougths and a little in my own world. When i woke up i was still tensed and self absorbed and a little panicky because it wasn't stopped. After a few resting days i still felt strange, my symptoms:
-Sweaty palms (a little bit)
-More self absorbed
-Tense in my body
-Ligth headed
I thougth it would stop but it didn't. Exactly a year later after i took my first mdma i took another one, everyone around me was using it and i was so curious how it felt to be in such a state of excitement that i used it agian. Very dumb. The cycle repeated and it became worse. Symptoms
- A completely tensed body
- Overheated body=> sometimes itchy
- Hands are normally very warm but when it's cold they become very cold (more then normal)
- Excessive sweating =>my whole body
- Fuzzy head - Beep in my head => i hear my head is working hard
- Muscle strain
- Visual snow
- Shaky hands and body
First it was worse: i couldn't retain information and racing thougths.
I was so self absorbed and my complete body was tensed that i didn't ask for help. After a year i finally seeked help and went into therapy (cognitive behaviour therapy). It didn't help a lot and after that i tried a few other things but not with big returns.
My question is does anyone else recognize my problems, especially the overheated body part and the excessive sweating (something you don't hear often). I have also uncousciously some worrying thougts when im sleeping (no nigthmares or dreams, but worries) that i cant stop...
If anyone recognize something in my story or you know people in this field with a lot of experience who can help me let me know!
Thanks and sorry for my bad english!
Thanks for reading!
When i was around 15/16 years old i started smoking weed. I was young and (a little) naive, but of course at that age i wanted to try things out. When is smoked weed i became tense and self absorbedinstead of relaxed. My body felt tense but it calmed my mind. After some time i quit because i felt a little strange in my head and also a little tense in my body when i wasn't using anything.
A year later i took for the first time mdma (the quality was good and the amount was balanced, a friend of mine took exactly the same), i got exactly the same feeling when i was using weed. Self absorbed and feeling tense, not happy or joyous. I was deep in my own thougths and a little in my own world. When i woke up i was still tensed and self absorbed and a little panicky because it wasn't stopped. After a few resting days i still felt strange, my symptoms:
-Sweaty palms (a little bit)
-More self absorbed
-Tense in my body
-Ligth headed
I thougth it would stop but it didn't. Exactly a year later after i took my first mdma i took another one, everyone around me was using it and i was so curious how it felt to be in such a state of excitement that i used it agian. Very dumb. The cycle repeated and it became worse. Symptoms
- A completely tensed body
- Overheated body=> sometimes itchy
- Hands are normally very warm but when it's cold they become very cold (more then normal)
- Excessive sweating =>my whole body
- Fuzzy head - Beep in my head => i hear my head is working hard
- Muscle strain
- Visual snow
- Shaky hands and body
First it was worse: i couldn't retain information and racing thougths.
I was so self absorbed and my complete body was tensed that i didn't ask for help. After a year i finally seeked help and went into therapy (cognitive behaviour therapy). It didn't help a lot and after that i tried a few other things but not with big returns.
My question is does anyone else recognize my problems, especially the overheated body part and the excessive sweating (something you don't hear often). I have also uncousciously some worrying thougts when im sleeping (no nigthmares or dreams, but worries) that i cant stop...
If anyone recognize something in my story or you know people in this field with a lot of experience who can help me let me know!
Thanks and sorry for my bad english!