Social anxiety since smoking weed/hasj at houseparty

[igotyoubro]

Hi guys,

This might be a little bit a long story but I really need answers to my questions.. So please help me out.
I am a 22 year old guy who likes smoking hasj/weed
I just had an awfull experience a couple of weeks ago..
I am a hasj smoker who smokes weed sometimes after some hasj joints. Now I had this party last month on a friday and I was smoking like 5 joints in a row with some other guys. After that I told them guys I would see them later and went to the party by myself. As I was walking to the party I was already thinking like.. Damnn I am super high right now.. What should I do? Should I go home? Should i go back to the boys?
I decided to go to the party and as soon as I entered the building I had a nerve already. It felt like people were looking at me differently i was not acting normal if you ask me.. and i was not catching a good vibe. So the whole night i wasn't feeling good and I was only thinking: WHY DID I SMOKED SO MUCH and wasn't i just going sober to the party so i can catch the good vibe first, have some drinks and then smoke my shit..
The whole week after that I wasn't feeling so good (not feeling normal) and thought that there was something wrong with me. I was still smoking from that friday till wednesday. I also had a new job since monday (2days before my last day smoking) and I felt very uncomfortable with the people around me. That monday I just thought that I may be tired or something. So I decided to go to bed early that day after some joints.. The day after I still wasn't comfortable and had some little panics while talking with co-workers. Thats when I thought there might be something wrong with me (somewhere thinking that it could link with the party last weekend, but wasn't sure). So i decided to go home and smoke some joints and go to bed early again. Normaly i would hang out like every day with friends and would smoke a lot of joints. Wednesday I decided to try again having a good day at my new job but I still had some panic insight me and I thought that the guys at work noticed it from the beginning and began to get crazy in my head. After work i'd go home and had a date actually.. I cancled it because i was not feeling well and was asking myself WTF was going on with me. So I called of and she was getting mad. That made me upset to because I was really willing to go out with her but i was to scared. After that i was rolling a joint, smoking it and i'd go to bed. I was really angry about the situation because i never felt this before. I did'nt no what was happening with me and i was going really crazy.
I never been a person with anxiety at all. I was a cool guy who could hang with any kind of person (though guys, nice people, girls etc..)
Only when smoked a joint i was more like, I don't want to see anybody unless the people i smoked with. (Idk why, but that was how i felt always when being high) I also didn't like to be in crowdy areas by myself when i was high. If i am with someone i could get my focus there so it didn't matter. So i already knew I had a kind of anxiety when being high.
Since I was staying home from work and was getting crazy I had a BIG social anxiety, i could see anybody i knew (not even family) i was to scared going to go to the front door or doing groceries, so i knew it was getting serious. I am glad the anxiety is getting less by the time. I know i am going to be the old me because i proved myself a lot of things i thought i was not willing to do since i had this anxiety.
Next to my smoking addiction I was addicted to jerking to porn for like 7 years. I did this almost every day since the begin and i always knew it wasn't good but i still did (addiction). I never was able to have sex with someone because i couldn't get a boner during the sex and i was always wondering why. I am very curious if my anxiety come from both things or just the heavy weed/hasj use the last 3 years.
I stopped with both addiction but i want to know if i could smoke it again in the future when my whole anxiety is over for a short or long period without having the same problem i had right now. I won't smoke that much any more and i will decide more clearly when or where i can smoke and not.

Thanks for reading my story and leave a comment please,
It will help a lot guys.

 

[dxm231]

I would advise taking a break from weed for a while. I have had a similar experience with marijuana but after taking a break and working through some of my mental health/self-judgment issues I have found that smoking doesn't cause the social anxiety anymore.
I think that you should try sticking to smoking with people you are comfortable with for the time being as well if you do smoke.

 

[CTdopeLove]

Sounds like you're going through a lot of changes right now (new job, new girl, etc.) and the weed is exacerbating your anxiety. I know it's tough to stop when you're in the routine of smoking every day, but take a short break and get in a comfortable routine then smoke when you don't have anything else to do so that you don't have to overthink things and continue a vicious cycle in your head. If you continue to smoke every day and get anxious all the time, your brain will link smoking to anxiety and you may never be able to enjoy it again, so seriously consider taking a short break and getting things in order.

Good luck!

-CTdopeLove

 

[igotyoubro]

Its been a 7 weeks ago i had my last joint.
I think i would like to smoke again in the future, but for now i think its better to recover from the anxiety disorder.
I also won't smoke that much anymore. I've learned from this experience and i know how bad i've been using it the last years.
Is there any other person who have experienced the same thing and could smoke after recovering from it without having the same anxiety after it?
I know its all about how your mind is set at the time..

 

[thujone]

by hash joints you mean like hash + tobacco? that combo always amps up the edge for me, and it's a lot of toxic shit when smoked so not exactly good for your body in general...

 

[Mafioso]

depending on how high I am I might start practicing some anti-social behavior(with non-stoners lol)...

something about being around sober people when you are completely wrecked is nerve racking. most other drugs you would be too fucked up to care but psychedelics make me ultra-sensitive to what others think- or might think, about me.

it's easy to get a sort of mental "tunnel vision" when you are stoned, getting sucked into one specific subject of thought and not being able to change. At least for me. When I'm around other people I don't freak out but I do get anxious and paranoid, thinking stuff about how awkward I must be for not being able to carry on a conversation and what not.

 

[Hilary]

Lots of people develop psychosis from too much THC, especially if they smoke on a daily basis. Try supplementing with 25 mg of CBD oil a day. It's a natural component of Marijuana that protects against psychosis.