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Hi guys,
This might be a little bit a long story but I really need answers to my questions.. So please help me out.
I am a 22 year old guy who likes smoking hasj/weed
I just had an awfull experience a couple of weeks ago..
I am a hasj smoker who smokes weed sometimes after some hasj joints. Now I had this party last month on a friday and I was smoking like 5 joints in a row with some other guys. After that I told them guys I would see them later and went to the party by myself. As I was walking to the party I was already thinking like.. Damnn I am super high right now.. What should I do? Should I go home? Should i go back to the boys?
I decided to go to the party and as soon as I entered the building I had a nerve already. It felt like people were looking at me differently i was not acting normal if you ask me.. and i was not catching a good vibe. So the whole night i wasn't feeling good and I was only thinking: WHY DID I SMOKED SO MUCH and wasn't i just going sober to the party so i can catch the good vibe first, have some drinks and then smoke my shit..
The whole week after that I wasn't feeling so good (not feeling normal) and thought that there was something wrong with me. I was still smoking from that friday till wednesday. I also had a new job since monday (2days before my last day smoking) and I felt very uncomfortable with the people around me. That monday I just thought that I may be tired or something. So I decided to go to bed early that day after some joints.. The day after I still wasn't comfortable and had some little panics while talking with co-workers. Thats when I thought there might be something wrong with me (somewhere thinking that it could link with the party last weekend, but wasn't sure). So i decided to go home and smoke some joints and go to bed early again. Normaly i would hang out like every day with friends and would smoke a lot of joints. Wednesday I decided to try again having a good day at my new job but I still had some panic insight me and I thought that the guys at work noticed it from the beginning and began to get crazy in my head. After work i'd go home and had a date actually.. I cancled it because i was not feeling well and was asking myself WTF was going on with me. So I called of and she was getting mad. That made me upset to because I was really willing to go out with her but i was to scared. After that i was rolling a joint, smoking it and i'd go to bed. I was really angry about the situation because i never felt this before. I did'nt no what was happening with me and i was going really crazy.
I never been a person with anxiety at all. I was a cool guy who could hang with any kind of person (though guys, nice people, girls etc..)
Only when smoked a joint i was more like, I don't want to see anybody unless the people i smoked with. (Idk why, but that was how i felt always when being high) I also didn't like to be in crowdy areas by myself when i was high. If i am with someone i could get my focus there so it didn't matter. So i already knew I had a kind of anxiety when being high.
Since I was staying home from work and was getting crazy I had a BIG social anxiety, i could see anybody i knew (not even family) i was to scared going to go to the front door or doing groceries, so i knew it was getting serious. I am glad the anxiety is getting less by the time. I know i am going to be the old me because i proved myself a lot of things i thought i was not willing to do since i had this anxiety.
Next to my smoking addiction I was addicted to jerking to porn for like 7 years. I did this almost every day since the begin and i always knew it wasn't good but i still did (addiction). I never was able to have sex with someone because i couldn't get a boner during the sex and i was always wondering why. I am very curious if my anxiety come from both things or just the heavy weed/hasj use the last 3 years.
I stopped with both addiction but i want to know if i could smoke it again in the future when my whole anxiety is over for a short or long period without having the same problem i had right now. I won't smoke that much any more and i will decide more clearly when or where i can smoke and not.
Thanks for reading my story and leave a comment please,
It will help a lot guys.
This might be a little bit a long story but I really need answers to my questions.. So please help me out.
I am a 22 year old guy who likes smoking hasj/weed
I just had an awfull experience a couple of weeks ago..
I am a hasj smoker who smokes weed sometimes after some hasj joints. Now I had this party last month on a friday and I was smoking like 5 joints in a row with some other guys. After that I told them guys I would see them later and went to the party by myself. As I was walking to the party I was already thinking like.. Damnn I am super high right now.. What should I do? Should I go home? Should i go back to the boys?
I decided to go to the party and as soon as I entered the building I had a nerve already. It felt like people were looking at me differently i was not acting normal if you ask me.. and i was not catching a good vibe. So the whole night i wasn't feeling good and I was only thinking: WHY DID I SMOKED SO MUCH and wasn't i just going sober to the party so i can catch the good vibe first, have some drinks and then smoke my shit..
The whole week after that I wasn't feeling so good (not feeling normal) and thought that there was something wrong with me. I was still smoking from that friday till wednesday. I also had a new job since monday (2days before my last day smoking) and I felt very uncomfortable with the people around me. That monday I just thought that I may be tired or something. So I decided to go to bed early that day after some joints.. The day after I still wasn't comfortable and had some little panics while talking with co-workers. Thats when I thought there might be something wrong with me (somewhere thinking that it could link with the party last weekend, but wasn't sure). So i decided to go home and smoke some joints and go to bed early again. Normaly i would hang out like every day with friends and would smoke a lot of joints. Wednesday I decided to try again having a good day at my new job but I still had some panic insight me and I thought that the guys at work noticed it from the beginning and began to get crazy in my head. After work i'd go home and had a date actually.. I cancled it because i was not feeling well and was asking myself WTF was going on with me. So I called of and she was getting mad. That made me upset to because I was really willing to go out with her but i was to scared. After that i was rolling a joint, smoking it and i'd go to bed. I was really angry about the situation because i never felt this before. I did'nt no what was happening with me and i was going really crazy.
I never been a person with anxiety at all. I was a cool guy who could hang with any kind of person (though guys, nice people, girls etc..)
Only when smoked a joint i was more like, I don't want to see anybody unless the people i smoked with. (Idk why, but that was how i felt always when being high) I also didn't like to be in crowdy areas by myself when i was high. If i am with someone i could get my focus there so it didn't matter. So i already knew I had a kind of anxiety when being high.
Since I was staying home from work and was getting crazy I had a BIG social anxiety, i could see anybody i knew (not even family) i was to scared going to go to the front door or doing groceries, so i knew it was getting serious. I am glad the anxiety is getting less by the time. I know i am going to be the old me because i proved myself a lot of things i thought i was not willing to do since i had this anxiety.
Next to my smoking addiction I was addicted to jerking to porn for like 7 years. I did this almost every day since the begin and i always knew it wasn't good but i still did (addiction). I never was able to have sex with someone because i couldn't get a boner during the sex and i was always wondering why. I am very curious if my anxiety come from both things or just the heavy weed/hasj use the last 3 years.
I stopped with both addiction but i want to know if i could smoke it again in the future when my whole anxiety is over for a short or long period without having the same problem i had right now. I won't smoke that much any more and i will decide more clearly when or where i can smoke and not.
Thanks for reading my story and leave a comment please,
It will help a lot guys.