XxNamastexx
Greenlighter
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- Jun 2, 2018
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So I became an idiot and smoked this drug. The reason I did was because of severe depression I was dealing with and it made my sex life amazing. This doesn't suit me st all because I am into working out (I'm pretty dedicated; competed in several competitions) In the past six months (I never used before this) I used it about 6 times. Twice in October and recently I used 4 times. Each time I used it was divided between at least a week. I didn't do any binges and never stayed up for a night (thank you benzodiazepines). I ate my six meals a day with enough protein, drank 10-12 cups of water, worked out and took my supplements. I feel like an idiot trying to justify myself that I can use once in awhile and be ok. Obviously that's where it starts. I'm tripping out I feel like it's affected my appearance (no acne because I'm taking care of myself) but I hope it didn't age me. I don't want to continue using but I'm so depressed and unmotivated when I'm sober. And not into sex at all....I think that's he main reason why I would do it.
So my questions are:
1. If I stop now, was my using enough to affect my looks?
2. What can I do that's not harmful to improve my sex life and focus? I probably have ADHD because naturally I have trouble focusing
Thanks guys...it's crazy why I kept at it. I don't even get cravings when I come down. But my sex drive sucks after...I actually feel closer to my partner. I'm naturally depressed because of some trauma I experienced so I get anxiety when I have sex and this takes it away. For me it's not worth it...I don't want to lose my looks and get unhealthy!
So my questions are:
1. If I stop now, was my using enough to affect my looks?
2. What can I do that's not harmful to improve my sex life and focus? I probably have ADHD because naturally I have trouble focusing
Thanks guys...it's crazy why I kept at it. I don't even get cravings when I come down. But my sex drive sucks after...I actually feel closer to my partner. I'm naturally depressed because of some trauma I experienced so I get anxiety when I have sex and this takes it away. For me it's not worth it...I don't want to lose my looks and get unhealthy!
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