Merry Christmas to you too!
I understand...we all have to vent sometimes. This is really pathetic, but I'm going to quote John Mellencamp (mark this day, kiddies, it'll never happen again): Life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone. I know, obvious and really useless, now that I think about it. Well at least I've embarassed myself...doesn't that bring a little happiness to your day?
Relax...restore a little levity to your existence. Enjoy the people you love and vice versa. So what if raves are dead? It certainly won't change the way I live my life. And of course all of us are a little dead; our innocence is (to some extent), our fingernails are, some of us have limp, lifeless hair (not me of course...my hair is quite lively...).
It sounds as if one or a couple of things have gone horribly wrong. If I can impart a little advice, view your emotional well-being like you would view finances; if you put your entire wad into one venture, you get either a big payoff or a nose dive into the gutter. Invest in "mutual funds," spread your hope and love around. That way if one emotional investment falls through, you'll still be okay.
Stop taking everything quite so seriously, and if you are still around the age of 20 or younger, realize that hormonal fluxations are usually to blame. Give yourself a little time to let the bumpy ride smooth out. Trust me, it will.
Oh, one more thing...today is the winter solstice (longest night of the year for the northern hemisphere and the closest pass of the Earth to the sun). Coincidentally, it also happens to be the full moon, AND the moon is unusually close to the Earth (on the opposite side from the sun...well DUH...it would have to be to be a full moon). All three have aligned in a situation that hasn't been experienced in about 133 years. This alignment and the slight gravitational effects therein will affect everything on the planet in wacky ways...animals will be freaky, and we being animals, yadda yadda yadda...you get the picture...and I can't believe I actually said "yadda yadda yadda." Hmmm...I guess I need a good beating for that one...
[This message has been edited by Mr. Sticky (edited 22 December 1999).]