simplescience6
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Eleven years ago I was put on buprenorphine to deal with a heroin addiction. I stayed on it for 2 years at 8mg a day. My first attempt at quitting saw me jump off at 8mg with no taper. I lasted three months, but the PAWS were interfering with my ability to finish school. I decided to go back on at 2mg a day. After I finished school, approximately 10 months later, I jumped off again, at 2mg, no taper. It was absolute hell for 6 months, but I made it through.
Since ceasing buprenorphine therapy I've never felt right. Sleep has been a serious issue, as has a growing dark depression and anxiety disorder. For the past 7 or 8 years I've been seeing psychiatrists, psychologists, addiction medicine specialists, been put on various ssri's, snri's, anti-psychotics and various other meds, and been involved in AA. Nothing seems to help, some things/meds make it worse.
About a year and a half ago I began using heroin again, sporadically. Initially I kept it on the fringes, no more than once a week, and very small doses. Gradually I began to use more and more, and though I never developed another daily habit, I would experience mild to moderate acute withdrawal symptoms after using a couple of days a week. I would get through these withdrawal periods using other meds.
It's currently been about 5 weeks since I've last used, and I continue to experience some serious PAWS...no sleep, severe depression and anxiety, etc. I'm considering going back on buprenorphine at a very small dose, and staying on it for the foreseeable future. I believe it would go very far in alleviating my depression, anxiety, insomnia, and improve my overall quality of life. My first time around with bupe I was in my mid 20's, I'm now in my mid 30's. I hesitate to go back on this med because I know how ridiculously difficult it is to quit. However, I don't intend to quit again, barring severe unforeseen side effects developing. I'm currently on moderately large doses of Gabapentin and Lyrica, both of which I'm very physically dependent on. Lyrica withdrawals are as horrible or worse than opioid and/or benzo w/d's. I believe the burprenorphine would go far in assisting coming off of these other meds, meds that have brought unwanted side effects.
Is a lifetime of buprenorphine maintenance a viable option? Is there anyone out there with a situation similar to mine (having ceased buprenorphine for a considerable time, but still struggling with a dark and worsening treatment resistant depression) who has made that decision? If so, how has it treated you?
All opinions are welcome and appreciated!
Since ceasing buprenorphine therapy I've never felt right. Sleep has been a serious issue, as has a growing dark depression and anxiety disorder. For the past 7 or 8 years I've been seeing psychiatrists, psychologists, addiction medicine specialists, been put on various ssri's, snri's, anti-psychotics and various other meds, and been involved in AA. Nothing seems to help, some things/meds make it worse.
About a year and a half ago I began using heroin again, sporadically. Initially I kept it on the fringes, no more than once a week, and very small doses. Gradually I began to use more and more, and though I never developed another daily habit, I would experience mild to moderate acute withdrawal symptoms after using a couple of days a week. I would get through these withdrawal periods using other meds.
It's currently been about 5 weeks since I've last used, and I continue to experience some serious PAWS...no sleep, severe depression and anxiety, etc. I'm considering going back on buprenorphine at a very small dose, and staying on it for the foreseeable future. I believe it would go very far in alleviating my depression, anxiety, insomnia, and improve my overall quality of life. My first time around with bupe I was in my mid 20's, I'm now in my mid 30's. I hesitate to go back on this med because I know how ridiculously difficult it is to quit. However, I don't intend to quit again, barring severe unforeseen side effects developing. I'm currently on moderately large doses of Gabapentin and Lyrica, both of which I'm very physically dependent on. Lyrica withdrawals are as horrible or worse than opioid and/or benzo w/d's. I believe the burprenorphine would go far in assisting coming off of these other meds, meds that have brought unwanted side effects.
Is a lifetime of buprenorphine maintenance a viable option? Is there anyone out there with a situation similar to mine (having ceased buprenorphine for a considerable time, but still struggling with a dark and worsening treatment resistant depression) who has made that decision? If so, how has it treated you?
All opinions are welcome and appreciated!