Probably it is a stupid question or one that can't be answered in a message board, but let me try to explain ... I'm trying to understand how my depression works, technically. It appears to be a puzzle with a difficulty far beyond of my brain's capacity.
I used to look / think about these neurotransmitter systems isolated, which was obviously wrong (that appears to be a somewhat common fault though). Thought I had tracked it down to something about NMDA and serotonin, that was after I realized that using plain NMDA antagonists is a dead end for me.
Now I'm realizing that moderate dose Codeine (85mg or so) + high dose Memantine (40-60mg) can do the same, or even better, without involving any direct action on serotonin (granted, memantine is a 5-HT3 antagonist, but I don't think that's the miracle point here for now). This feels so naturally serotonergic that I would bet there is some 5-HT disinhibition happening.
Always thought that benzos and opioids must have some similarities (as the same people often like them), but for me they are completely unlike each other. I don't like benzos at all. They take me down and bring relief, for which I am thankful from time to time, but I dislike how they feel and sedate / limit me, what opioids curiously don't do. They are stimulating. On my first try of a tiny bit of heroin I couldn't sleep the whole night. No nausea or itching though (and it was legit heroin).
Also memantine alone appears to do / mess something with the endorphin system. When I was on 40mg/d of memantine and accidentally got exposed to naloxone I got my first terrible taste of opioid withdrawal- without having tolerance to opioids, or even an active opioid in my system!
How are these systems interconnected, is there some stuff online you could recommend to help me understanding this?
I used to look / think about these neurotransmitter systems isolated, which was obviously wrong (that appears to be a somewhat common fault though). Thought I had tracked it down to something about NMDA and serotonin, that was after I realized that using plain NMDA antagonists is a dead end for me.
Now I'm realizing that moderate dose Codeine (85mg or so) + high dose Memantine (40-60mg) can do the same, or even better, without involving any direct action on serotonin (granted, memantine is a 5-HT3 antagonist, but I don't think that's the miracle point here for now). This feels so naturally serotonergic that I would bet there is some 5-HT disinhibition happening.
Always thought that benzos and opioids must have some similarities (as the same people often like them), but for me they are completely unlike each other. I don't like benzos at all. They take me down and bring relief, for which I am thankful from time to time, but I dislike how they feel and sedate / limit me, what opioids curiously don't do. They are stimulating. On my first try of a tiny bit of heroin I couldn't sleep the whole night. No nausea or itching though (and it was legit heroin).
Also memantine alone appears to do / mess something with the endorphin system. When I was on 40mg/d of memantine and accidentally got exposed to naloxone I got my first terrible taste of opioid withdrawal- without having tolerance to opioids, or even an active opioid in my system!
How are these systems interconnected, is there some stuff online you could recommend to help me understanding this?