littlesmg88
Greenlighter
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- Jul 30, 2016
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My father and best friend can "tell" when I'm on my meds and give me crap about it. My dad and I fight and he is snappy and mean towards me and says things like I'm a drug addict or I'm high or speeding. My best friend told me she didn't want to be rude but she could tell when I'm on my meds. I asked how? What are the symptoms? She said my sleep pattern is messed up, I obsess over things like playing my computer game and I'm anti-social.
The real story: I was diagnosed with ADD and put on adderall 13 years ago. It helped tremendously. When I am on it I do notice about myself that I am antisocial, I like to be left alone and focus on doing my own things. I do spend an extreme amount of time playing my game BUT I also get things accomplished and it's the only time I am ever productive. I make daily to do lists and manage my time to still get things done and have my game time.
I have such a high tolerance therefore for the past 5 years have began to take them more than prescribed and run out early. But it seems like there is no in between. I'm either the way my dad and friend see me or I am the complete opposite (lazy, bored, sleeping non stop).
Cutting down my dose isn't an option because what I take now (20xr wears off in 4 hours 10 IR wears off in 2). Smaller doses don't have any effect on me.
I've developed self-conciousness of myself when I'm on them around anyone now because of my fathers attitude towards me.
Any advice?
The real story: I was diagnosed with ADD and put on adderall 13 years ago. It helped tremendously. When I am on it I do notice about myself that I am antisocial, I like to be left alone and focus on doing my own things. I do spend an extreme amount of time playing my game BUT I also get things accomplished and it's the only time I am ever productive. I make daily to do lists and manage my time to still get things done and have my game time.
I have such a high tolerance therefore for the past 5 years have began to take them more than prescribed and run out early. But it seems like there is no in between. I'm either the way my dad and friend see me or I am the complete opposite (lazy, bored, sleeping non stop).
Cutting down my dose isn't an option because what I take now (20xr wears off in 4 hours 10 IR wears off in 2). Smaller doses don't have any effect on me.
I've developed self-conciousness of myself when I'm on them around anyone now because of my fathers attitude towards me.
Any advice?