Hi my name is bobby
I am 22 years old and I got into a bad habit which lead me to some health issues and severe mental health issues. I was addicted to drugs and lost my job, got kicked out of my home and basically my life was ruined.
I then quit taking drugs and ive been trying to create a good life for myself, but the drugs have put me in a very unstable condition mentally and physically. About the first few weeks off the drugs I noticed how bad I was and how messed up my body was, I had pains in my stomache and bowel movements all the time, I was so agitated all the time I couldn't sit still without having to move or tapping something. I had very bad insomnia, I couldn't watch t.v. or listen to music. I started to do some research and from my research I believe I have poisoned my body from taking drugs. I don't feel any pleasure anymore or any natural highs and my head felt like it was in between a clamp with loads off pressure all the time. I have severe brain fog which makes my life so hard as I'm finding it hard to be able to socialise and even keep my job. Anyway my symptoms kept persisting and persisting.
Then 1 day in the summer I felt so messed up I couldn't handle it so I stupidly had a relapse 4 months after taking my last drug. It put me back to square 1 because I did make some progress prior my relapse. After my relapse I noticed some off my symptoms had stooped ie severe agitation, insomnia had worn off and my head didn't feel like it was clamped anymore but I feel worse because I still have no emotions or any feelings! My brain fog has gotten alot worse I feel like I'm trapped in a content mind because I feel constantly content but I have no feelings or emotions what so ever, I feel the relapse had shut down my recovery and it feels like my body is content in the state that I'm in. I am 4months into after my relapse and I still feel the same I don't have symptons other than pains in my stomach and severe brain fog.
I know I have been so stupid but I have never meant any harm to anyone, I'm not a bad person but I have dug my self a whole and I feel permanently trapped, I can't go on like this I need my emotions back because at the moment I feel like an empty shell which gets exploited by other people because I'm so numb.
Can anyone help me with my issues and has anyone been in my place and recovered
Thanks
I am 22 years old and I got into a bad habit which lead me to some health issues and severe mental health issues. I was addicted to drugs and lost my job, got kicked out of my home and basically my life was ruined.
I then quit taking drugs and ive been trying to create a good life for myself, but the drugs have put me in a very unstable condition mentally and physically. About the first few weeks off the drugs I noticed how bad I was and how messed up my body was, I had pains in my stomache and bowel movements all the time, I was so agitated all the time I couldn't sit still without having to move or tapping something. I had very bad insomnia, I couldn't watch t.v. or listen to music. I started to do some research and from my research I believe I have poisoned my body from taking drugs. I don't feel any pleasure anymore or any natural highs and my head felt like it was in between a clamp with loads off pressure all the time. I have severe brain fog which makes my life so hard as I'm finding it hard to be able to socialise and even keep my job. Anyway my symptoms kept persisting and persisting.
Then 1 day in the summer I felt so messed up I couldn't handle it so I stupidly had a relapse 4 months after taking my last drug. It put me back to square 1 because I did make some progress prior my relapse. After my relapse I noticed some off my symptoms had stooped ie severe agitation, insomnia had worn off and my head didn't feel like it was clamped anymore but I feel worse because I still have no emotions or any feelings! My brain fog has gotten alot worse I feel like I'm trapped in a content mind because I feel constantly content but I have no feelings or emotions what so ever, I feel the relapse had shut down my recovery and it feels like my body is content in the state that I'm in. I am 4months into after my relapse and I still feel the same I don't have symptons other than pains in my stomach and severe brain fog.
I know I have been so stupid but I have never meant any harm to anyone, I'm not a bad person but I have dug my self a whole and I feel permanently trapped, I can't go on like this I need my emotions back because at the moment I feel like an empty shell which gets exploited by other people because I'm so numb.
Can anyone help me with my issues and has anyone been in my place and recovered
Thanks
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