Tommyboy
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Hey guys,
I'm leaving for detox tomorrow night so I'm not sure how far into this discussion I will get, but the title says it all. I am going into a detox facility tomorrow and despite the fact that I don't abuse benzos and have a legitimate prescription for them they said I can't be on them there. I have been on benzos since 2005 (3mg of xanax until 2009 when I began a valium taper, got down to less than 1mg a day but couldn't take it and am now taking around 7.5mg a day) so I don't see how I can stop without a longer taper.
I told them that I don't abuse my valium and I have my script with a bunch left over when it should have ran out today, so I don't see why I can't continue taking it if I just want to detox of opiates and wish to continue on my valium script. I'm not mandated to go or anything but my parents are forcing me to go and they swear that if it gets too unbearable that they will pick me up right away.
I don't know what to do with the script while I'm there. Should I bring it with me in case the benzo detox is too horrible and I need to leave and take it, or should I leave it with my parents who I don't know if I can trust to come and bring me it if I need it and want to leave?
I've mostly been taking 5mg of valium a day lately, so I'm wondering if there is a change I can successfully kick it, but I'm barely in a sound state of mind on that dose so I don't think I'll be well without it. I would love to no longer be dependent on benzos, but it takes time. I think that perhaps they are more used to the benzo addict that has been on them for a few months and just recently became physically dependent, compared to me who has skipped maybe 15 days the 7-8 years I've been on them.
I'm assuming they will give me phenobarbital or something, and it better be for a few weeks if that's the case. I'm just afraid of a) seizures and everything else that comes with benzo w.d. and b) not being able to get anything out of rehab since I'll be in such a bad state of mind that I won't be able to focus on anything.
Ugh, I just wish I could focus on the opiate detox and go from there. I wouldn't even mind going down to 2mg of valium while I'm there, but having to stop is probably going to be too much for me. My parents are telling me the whole "they will give you stuff to make you comfortable, that's what they do. Trust them, they are professionals, etc..." but I'm telling them otherwise.
Any suggestions? Has anybody kicked a similar benzo dosage and duration of use?
I'm leaving for detox tomorrow night so I'm not sure how far into this discussion I will get, but the title says it all. I am going into a detox facility tomorrow and despite the fact that I don't abuse benzos and have a legitimate prescription for them they said I can't be on them there. I have been on benzos since 2005 (3mg of xanax until 2009 when I began a valium taper, got down to less than 1mg a day but couldn't take it and am now taking around 7.5mg a day) so I don't see how I can stop without a longer taper.
I told them that I don't abuse my valium and I have my script with a bunch left over when it should have ran out today, so I don't see why I can't continue taking it if I just want to detox of opiates and wish to continue on my valium script. I'm not mandated to go or anything but my parents are forcing me to go and they swear that if it gets too unbearable that they will pick me up right away.
I don't know what to do with the script while I'm there. Should I bring it with me in case the benzo detox is too horrible and I need to leave and take it, or should I leave it with my parents who I don't know if I can trust to come and bring me it if I need it and want to leave?
I've mostly been taking 5mg of valium a day lately, so I'm wondering if there is a change I can successfully kick it, but I'm barely in a sound state of mind on that dose so I don't think I'll be well without it. I would love to no longer be dependent on benzos, but it takes time. I think that perhaps they are more used to the benzo addict that has been on them for a few months and just recently became physically dependent, compared to me who has skipped maybe 15 days the 7-8 years I've been on them.
I'm assuming they will give me phenobarbital or something, and it better be for a few weeks if that's the case. I'm just afraid of a) seizures and everything else that comes with benzo w.d. and b) not being able to get anything out of rehab since I'll be in such a bad state of mind that I won't be able to focus on anything.
Ugh, I just wish I could focus on the opiate detox and go from there. I wouldn't even mind going down to 2mg of valium while I'm there, but having to stop is probably going to be too much for me. My parents are telling me the whole "they will give you stuff to make you comfortable, that's what they do. Trust them, they are professionals, etc..." but I'm telling them otherwise.
Any suggestions? Has anybody kicked a similar benzo dosage and duration of use?