Quitting ketamine, getting a life back

[browntim68]

Hi all

Thought I'd post here seen as this is a big deal for me and my partner.

I've used ket for about 10 years wiht increasing dependency. The longeset I've gone without is maybe a couple of weeks over the last 2 years. But basically I use on most days.

I'm really excited about the potential for getting my life back but I'm a bit scared don't feel like a normal person. I think about ket often, I feel like the "ket fairies" are making things go wrong around the house because I've stopped taking K... i mean, i know that is not reality but it shows the drug is capable of producing delusions.

My memory is awful and I feel dumb and not as sharp as I should be had I not used it so much. I find it hard to focus on things. I think I don't fit in to society that well because K has made me into a slightly weird person.

I don't really enjoy socialising because it doesn't entertain me like it used to when I was younger. I'm constantly craving dopamine hits so when I'm not using something I instead eat loads of food or home alone I will watch too much porn or outside I'll stare at people sexually, too much (even though I have a beautiful partner who I love and am attracted to and have sex with).

So basically, I don't have a grest amount of confidence in myself.. however I do have a partner who I love and adore who is also quitting ketamine/alcohol ... so hopefully together we can get through this and I can learn to have more of a life and perhaps become a bit more normal.

Wish me luck!
Thanks

ps Just wanted to get this out somewhere

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Best of luck quitting.

 

[Wiserthanearlier]

Good luck!
If possible, can you post updates?

 

[simco]

Glad you're making this choice...and glad you found Bluelight and Sober Living. I think you'll find that a lot of people here can offer good advice and moral support, so like Wiserthanearlier, I recommend using this thread to write about your progress, to the extent that it seems helpful for you to do so.

Please just let us know if you have any questions or concerns that we might be able to shed light on.

Best luck.

Sim

 

[Grinders Kiefers]

Hi browntim. Dissociatives were my drug of choice as well. I was more into MXE and 3-MeO-PCP but did K whenever I could get my hands on it. It's rough coming back to reality, but it's definitely doable. That's great that you have a loving partner for support. Are you planning to seek any outside treatment or therapy? Good luck to you, let us know how we can help and feel free to PM me if you want to chat privately.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Also wishing you well OP! Dissociatives have likewise become my drug of choice (well, opioids were my first love, but you know...). Life can be tough with (and without) them.

 

[goneundersea01]

Hi browntim. Dissociatives were my drug of choice as well. I was more into MXE and 3-MeO-PCP but did K whenever I could get my hands on it. It's rough coming back to reality, but it's definitely doable. That's great that you have a loving partner for support. Are you planning to seek any outside treatment or therapy? Good luck to you, let us know how we can help and feel free to PM me if you want to chat privately.

Any tips on going sober from Ketamine during the pandemic? Im a regular k taker ( 1-2 grams over 2/3 days) for 10 years now and looking to sober up whilst I cant leave home. My dealer still delivers annoyingly but Ive blocked the number in hope that will stop me . I got k pains for the first time 3 days ago and it's pushed me to finally stop. Over this addiction

 

[goneundersea01]

Any tips on going sober from Ketamine during the pandemic? Im a regular k taker ( 1-2 grams over 2/3 days) for 10 years now and looking to sober up whilst I cant leave home. My dealer still delivers annoyingly but Ive blocked the number in hope that will stop me . I got k pains for the first time 3 days ago and it's pushed me to finally stop. Over this addiction

 

[goneundersea01]

Hi all

Thought I'd post here seen as this is a big deal for me and my partner.

I've used ket for about 10 years wiht increasing dependency. The longeset I've gone without is maybe a couple of weeks over the last 2 years. But basically I use on most days.

I'm really excited about the potential for getting my life back but I'm a bit scared don't feel like a normal person. I think about ket often, I feel like the "ket fairies" are making things go wrong around the house because I've stopped taking K... i mean, i know that is not reality but it shows the drug is capable of producing delusions.

My memory is awful and I feel dumb and not as sharp as I should be had I not used it so much. I find it hard to focus on things. I think I don't fit in to society that well because K has made me into a slightly weird person.

I don't really enjoy socialising because it doesn't entertain me like it used to when I was younger. I'm constantly craving dopamine hits so when I'm not using something I instead eat loads of food or home alone I will watch too much porn or outside I'll stare at people sexually, too much (even though I have a beautiful partner who I love and am attracted to and have sex with).

So basically, I don't have a grest amount of confidence in myself.. however I do have a partner who I love and adore who is also quitting ketamine/alcohol ... so hopefully together we can get through this and I can learn to have more of a life and perhaps become a bit more normal.

Wish me luck!
Thanks

ps Just wanted to get this out somewhere

How did it go? Im about to go sober and would love some advice / tips !

 

[Captain.Heroin]

How did it go? Im about to go sober and would love some advice / tips !

Keep yourself busy, try re-integrating as much as possible. Don't be afraid you'll never be normal or whatever: you totally already are. Some of us were just a bit weird to begin with and that's something you'll easily lose track of using dissos/psychs.

Try to find your passions/hobbies, etc, that mean something to you. Focus on that instead.

You might have a period where you're sweating/sleeping/feeling like shit a lot. I reckon it doesn't last forever from what I've gone through doing dumb shit over the years.

From what I've gone on and off of, this is one of the easier ones to quit. It feels like just the sweating/lack of energy part of an opiate withdrawal minus all the other horrific symptoms.

I have heard longer/heavier duration = worse WD's.

Take care and good luck.

 

[goneundersea01]

Keep yourself busy, try re-integrating as much as possible. Don't be afraid you'll never be normal or whatever: you totally already are. Some of us were just a bit weird to begin with and that's something you'll easily lose track of using dissos/psychs.

Try to find your passions/hobbies, etc, that mean something to you. Focus on that instead.

You might have a period where you're sweating/sleeping/feeling like shit a lot. I reckon it doesn't last forever from what I've gone through doing dumb shit over the years.

From what I've gone on and off of, this is one of the easier ones to quit. It feels like just the sweating/lack of energy part of an opiate withdrawal minus all the other horrific symptoms.

I have heard longer/heavier duration = worse WD's.

Take care and good luck.

Thanks so much... I know it's a physiological thing. Growing up gay, moving to London then getting my heart broken by my first ( and only ) boyfriend. Thats when the drug abuse started so I know it's escaping / dealing with painful past experiences but I can't blame that forever.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Thanks so much... I know it's a physiological thing. Growing up gay, moving to London then getting my heart broken by my first ( and only ) boyfriend. Thats when the drug abuse started so I know it's escaping / dealing with painful past experiences but I can't blame that forever.

Just one?

Imagine you like ice cream and are at Baskin Robbins. There's 31 flavors. Why stop at vanilla?

Just saying. I know the heart-break feeling but you gotta keep on your path. Don't give up hope.

 

[Shady's Fox]

However you can't just throw darts around blaming K for your personal life mistakes. It might slightly influence you more than usual but nothing uncommon. You can control yourself. Best luck, much love and remember brother I have 12 yrs since I haven't touched anything. You can do it, be confident.