After being awake for over 5 days, I suffered a brief stint with psychosis. I will explain to you what I can remember.
My perception was totally altered. I wasn't on any drugs, but I had taken a bit of extacy and speed in those 5 days. The alteration of perception I experienced was like nothing before. I was not hallucinating, and I wasn't lovey or high. It was not like being on drugs.
My perception was changed in the way that I thought about things, myself and my friends. Personally I felt resilient. I didn't feel tired at all, and I had a feeling of "superiorness" over those around me. I was looking at my 1 of my closest friends thinking that I was so much better than her. People were telling me to get to sleep, I was telling them to shutup!
The closest I can relate the feeling of superiorness, is the egotiscal behaviour that can sometimes be displayed after repeated use of Ketamine. I felt like I was God, and that I could do anything I wanted. Nothing else mattered.
During this time, I had no belief that I was experiencing psychosis.
I ended up accidentally locking myself out of my friends place (while they were sleeping). I was on a mission to find cigarettes. I bought some and then spent 2 hours walking around Sth Yarra trying to find my way back to my mates. I was a surprisingly nonchalant.
Finding my way back to the house and nobody was up yet. I started calling people at 7am on a Tuesday morning because I was bored and needed somebody to hang out with. I had lost all perception of time and it was outside of my abilitites to work out what the time was.
I fell asleep sitting on the chair with a cigarette in my hand. 2 hours later, I received a phone call of a friend wanting to meet up for coffee, I'd had 2 hrs sleep in 6 days now, yet I jumped up went for coffee and we chatted for a while. This person came to me with a problem, my response was pretty much "I cant be assed helping you out."
Thats all I can remember. I dont know how quickly I recovered from my psychocis as it was all a bit of a blur. It hasn't altered me in the slightest. It was a very interestnig thing to experience.
My perception was totally altered. I wasn't on any drugs, but I had taken a bit of extacy and speed in those 5 days. The alteration of perception I experienced was like nothing before. I was not hallucinating, and I wasn't lovey or high. It was not like being on drugs.
My perception was changed in the way that I thought about things, myself and my friends. Personally I felt resilient. I didn't feel tired at all, and I had a feeling of "superiorness" over those around me. I was looking at my 1 of my closest friends thinking that I was so much better than her. People were telling me to get to sleep, I was telling them to shutup!
The closest I can relate the feeling of superiorness, is the egotiscal behaviour that can sometimes be displayed after repeated use of Ketamine. I felt like I was God, and that I could do anything I wanted. Nothing else mattered.
During this time, I had no belief that I was experiencing psychosis.
I ended up accidentally locking myself out of my friends place (while they were sleeping). I was on a mission to find cigarettes. I bought some and then spent 2 hours walking around Sth Yarra trying to find my way back to my mates. I was a surprisingly nonchalant.
Finding my way back to the house and nobody was up yet. I started calling people at 7am on a Tuesday morning because I was bored and needed somebody to hang out with. I had lost all perception of time and it was outside of my abilitites to work out what the time was.
I fell asleep sitting on the chair with a cigarette in my hand. 2 hours later, I received a phone call of a friend wanting to meet up for coffee, I'd had 2 hrs sleep in 6 days now, yet I jumped up went for coffee and we chatted for a while. This person came to me with a problem, my response was pretty much "I cant be assed helping you out."
Thats all I can remember. I dont know how quickly I recovered from my psychocis as it was all a bit of a blur. It hasn't altered me in the slightest. It was a very interestnig thing to experience.