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Most of my life I've felt different from other people. I'm not sure if I recognise feelings in others which I think is empathy. I don't do bad things because I don't want to get into trouble lol not for any other reason. I don't hurt people for pleasure or anything like that. I really like to take mdma and I'm wondering if I've ever had the emphatic feeling or just enjoyed the high. I find it a very hedonistic drug. People hug you and say I love you and the response is the same back. It doesn't mean I agree. I often don't care for others stories but will listen to avoid upsetting them. Not for them but because I know this is trouble for me.

Anyway... Is it possible that i am a psychopath and have never experienced the empathy? How exactly would I know? Do psychopaths experience empathy on mdma?

I generally fit into society and don't murder anyone btw. I'm too scared of the jail time to be fair. I like my freedom more than taking out my enemies. I've been saving my list of people for a better opportunity that doesn't see me in prison lol.
 
I hung out with a certified psyhopath who was in prison for murder who told me about his e experience. He said it didn't make him feel more empathic, just made him more open about his personal life to others.
 
It is essential that you do consult a doctor regarding your mental state. Psycopath is at the end of a spectrum of many differing mental make ups. Psycopath is the extremity of Sociopath. Psycopath is effectively the point of criminal insantiy. You have to commit criminal acts against others.

Sociopath fits your description much closer. Sociopath is recognised as a common condition, with a suggested 1 in 10 people have varying degrees of sociopathic tendency.

However for you to be able to live a full and fulfilling life with sociopathic quality you should look to find out the level. You may also be suffering from internal mental issues which in fact are totally unrelated to any of the above. To live a full and rewarding life you need to find out who you are.
 
Psychopath, sociopath, it's not black and white. If you're questioning having felt empathy than you most likely haven't felt it. And so if you are non-empathetic then so be it. It seems like you've lived with it so far.
 
Sometimes feelings cant be defined, decribed or understood by either point of view.

Sometimes things that cants be defined, described or understood may seem to not exist.
 
Thanks for the replies. I'm sure I've had empathy as a feeling without drugs. Anyway I'm not going to kill anyone or commit any crimes, well I'm not going to commit a lot of crimes that hurt anyone.

I've never had this thinking before and I've never explored the possibility. I have always just thought I was a little better than everyone else lol but I understand this is not good thinking. Through more reading I believe I am able to have a normal life.

Thank you all for replying.
 
Good luck working with this. There must be some capacity for empathy, as you consider others' points of view, for example when huggging on mdma.
Im not a medical specialist however, this alone sounds like some kind of empathy.
Can consideration exist without empathy? Hmm possibly. But searching for it should give you comfort that you know what your looking for.

Be careful with drug use, especially stimulants with this remaining unclear.
Hednonism is normal with drugs but it should be clearly defined in one self and respected.
 
Thanks for the reply. After much searching and reading I'm under the impression that I just don't understand my own emotional state lol. I may have felt empathy in many different ways or I may have considered others opinions which may be empathy... it's very hard to understand tbf. I don't think that e has given me empathy though I think it has made me more open. That doesn't mean I haven't been empathic in my life either. I have had a long break from e now. At least 4-5 months. I probably won't do it again for another month or 2.
 
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