Plurple
Bluelighter
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- Dec 15, 2015
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Mental issues such as depression, anxiety, bi polar, schizophrenia, and a couple others like factitious disorder run in my family.
Tripping on 200+ tabs at a time 17 years ago brought out my uncles underlying issues, my mother has told me that she sometimes hears things. You get my point I'm more susceptible to some issues.
Well, despite knowing this and knowing that psychedelics can bring out underlying issues I still stepped my foot in that hole any way.
I know every body and every mind is different so I figured maybe I'd get out lucky, and hearing voices and things like that is bogus.
I always held on to that hope that maybe I was different than the rest of my family and hopefully I had missed out on that gene.
I loved all of my LSD trips. Even the scary ones turned out to be beautiful experiences I could grow on and learn from. I never exceeded 500micrograms. Yet, I'm sitting here smoking my cigarette and hearing screams and crying. It's quite off putting for me. I even mentioned to my mother the other day what I was hearing and all she told me was the voices get louder.
So, my arrogance is nipping me in the ass quite hard. Even though I was careful with my dosage and spacing out time between my trips, it still brought forth some nasty symptoms. Don't know if it's bipolar, depression, anxiety, insomnia, or what(I wish their was an off switch to my thoughts, it's lIke ADHD on meth). I just know if I do trip again it's going to be quite a while.
I'm debating on dealing with the issues on my own and not using pharmaceuticals, or going to therapy and uncomfortably speeling my guts to a stranger. Ugh
I guess the point I'm trying to make of this post in the name of harm reduction, if you know mental illness runs in your family rethink your decision to use psychedelics. This is something that is going to take quite some time for me to adjust to.
Tripping on 200+ tabs at a time 17 years ago brought out my uncles underlying issues, my mother has told me that she sometimes hears things. You get my point I'm more susceptible to some issues.
Well, despite knowing this and knowing that psychedelics can bring out underlying issues I still stepped my foot in that hole any way.
I know every body and every mind is different so I figured maybe I'd get out lucky, and hearing voices and things like that is bogus.
I always held on to that hope that maybe I was different than the rest of my family and hopefully I had missed out on that gene.
I loved all of my LSD trips. Even the scary ones turned out to be beautiful experiences I could grow on and learn from. I never exceeded 500micrograms. Yet, I'm sitting here smoking my cigarette and hearing screams and crying. It's quite off putting for me. I even mentioned to my mother the other day what I was hearing and all she told me was the voices get louder.
So, my arrogance is nipping me in the ass quite hard. Even though I was careful with my dosage and spacing out time between my trips, it still brought forth some nasty symptoms. Don't know if it's bipolar, depression, anxiety, insomnia, or what(I wish their was an off switch to my thoughts, it's lIke ADHD on meth). I just know if I do trip again it's going to be quite a while.
I'm debating on dealing with the issues on my own and not using pharmaceuticals, or going to therapy and uncomfortably speeling my guts to a stranger. Ugh
I guess the point I'm trying to make of this post in the name of harm reduction, if you know mental illness runs in your family rethink your decision to use psychedelics. This is something that is going to take quite some time for me to adjust to.