cyberius
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I've been integrating a ++++(+) trip for months now and I'm still trying to decode what the fuck actually happened. I had dosed 50mg of 4-ho-mipt and 50-100mg of MXP with wellbutrin in the morning, and it was an unreal nightmarish experience. After dosing the MXP I felt like I was being "driven" (A really nasty energy was erupting inside of me, every cell of my body was working 200%). visual wise the entire room would turn red and be textured with satanic faces and eyeballs before flashing to white and being partially ripped out of existance I felt these delusions of becoming information and knowing everything as my mind would accelerate to the extreme; I felt like everybody was against me in some indescribable plot to stop me from evolving. I obviously held this back with every shred of my being because it was fucking nightmarish.
I also should note what set this off was contemplating life, and trying to figure out why things were on an abstract level. I felt like I was getting my wish and being exposed to some ever expanding network of dimensional information and heirarchy. I was no longer human, but a distorted game of numbers trying to recalculate itself and trying to create any sort of abstraction to survive
What does this sound like though? A psychotic break? Mania? A near death experience? The doctors that ttreated me in the hospital had no clue what I had but my pulse was thundering, they said I might of not made it to me when I came in
I also should note what set this off was contemplating life, and trying to figure out why things were on an abstract level. I felt like I was getting my wish and being exposed to some ever expanding network of dimensional information and heirarchy. I was no longer human, but a distorted game of numbers trying to recalculate itself and trying to create any sort of abstraction to survive
What does this sound like though? A psychotic break? Mania? A near death experience? The doctors that ttreated me in the hospital had no clue what I had but my pulse was thundering, they said I might of not made it to me when I came in
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