Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
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- Nov 3, 1999
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good news! i saw my friend at the drugs services this morning and she looked so much better and didn't seem as out of it, and with a bit of luck she will be back in rehab tomorrow. i really hope she goes back in, and it sticks this time.
just had a heavy group therapy session, about forgiveness. i broke down in tears because some things just feel unforgivable. i can understand that it is a way to draw a line under pain and move forward from it, and i would love to be able to do that. i don't want to be haunted by the past anymore. but i don't know how i can sincerely forgive, saying 'ok i forgive you for me' and still hating someone isn't forgiveness, cos i have to get rid of the resentment too, which means i can't just pay lip service to it. the woman taking the session did say its not something you can just do, to start on small stuff, and its something to aim towards, which has at least opened a little chink. i can sincerely believe that i want to forgive someone to help myself.
just had a heavy group therapy session, about forgiveness. i broke down in tears because some things just feel unforgivable. i can understand that it is a way to draw a line under pain and move forward from it, and i would love to be able to do that. i don't want to be haunted by the past anymore. but i don't know how i can sincerely forgive, saying 'ok i forgive you for me' and still hating someone isn't forgiveness, cos i have to get rid of the resentment too, which means i can't just pay lip service to it. the woman taking the session did say its not something you can just do, to start on small stuff, and its something to aim towards, which has at least opened a little chink. i can sincerely believe that i want to forgive someone to help myself.