I'm putting together a book and it's been taking up all my time.
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Black coffee;
Black cloth;
Ashes to ashes,
upon the wings of a moth;
If to each was given
the very same breadth,
then why am I now
the only one left?
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There were nights:
Alone;
Times through which you will never pass;
During whence my clamour was lowered to a moderate whimper,
and your eyes more oily than even the stone could glisten;
Then, as lucidity began to set in,
and resolution, sharpen;
Vile moments emerged
from the clockwork of gods;
Passion encased within
each and every one;
Transmuted and extinguished,
under it’s own cold, dead weight;
The conductor,
a mere firing of neuron;
Freshly dead in a grave I sure as hell didn’t dig!
Perchance revived,
simulated,
emulated,
or purged at the whim of more enlightened men?
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I close my eyes
and see within:
A globe of blue
and speckled green;
drenched in satin,
crimson hue:
In droplets,
as rose petals,
pooled upon
an obsidian
foundation.
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If there were more
for man to do,
would he even
understand?
The goal of life,
a golden egg,
lain and naught
for human hands;
so fit to rule,
we find the eyes
devoid of life,
a tarnished soul;
and grimly now,
the man in grey,
juggling skulls
on glowing coals.
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Sometimes,
I wonder if you ever think of me;
If you ever drink alone,
and wish I was there to keep you company;
because God knows we’re both getting older,
and more stubborn by the day;
and well, I sure as hell am not happy
sleeping alone every night;
but I won’t pretend to believe
that your bed is ever empty;
I will never be your fool;
nor will I play the Hades
to your Persephone;
for though I may appear ignorant of low hanging fruit,
For though I may
lament low hanging fruit,
I refuse to waste my effort
on that which cannot be attained.
Sometimes,
I wonder if you ever think of me;
If you ever drink alone,
and wish I was there to keep you company;
because God knows we’re both getting older,
and more stubborn by the day;
and well, I sure as hell am not happy
sleeping alone every night;
but I won’t pretend to believe
that your bed is ever empty;
I will never be your fool;
nor will I play the Hades
to your Persephone;
for though I may appear ignorant of low hanging fruit,
For though I may
lament low hanging fruit,
I refuse to waste my effort
on that which cannot be attained.
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On spring’s cusp,
by the water’s edge,
sand meets the sea foam
once again;
Darkness consumes the slow ebb;
I court the night
and play with her
like clay in my hands;
Striking a balance;
I tread with death;
Yet another heart
caught in the undertow.
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Ownership, a rusty blade;
Occam’s razor cuts both ways;
In the trenches now,
light trickles in;
Illuminating slow breath;
Waiting for sunrise:
At rock bottom, we will meet.
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An aphotic breeze crossed the great divide:
New efforts shot into thin air;
Under the moon
nearly full,
passed a single tear;
In a moment;
Between
black and white.
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Winter’s requiem:
A solemn note, frozen solid;
As the crow flies,
straight through the eye of a needle;
So do these gossamer threads
hold up
walls of stone.
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It consumes me:
This productive dis-ease;
Some call it passion,
others, inspired work;
I call it creating one man’s own canon;
A revisionist history,
where dreams meet reality:
Falling asleep mid sentence.
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Beneath the blue sky;
A trick of light,
captured and reflected,
like the glistening
of a sociopath’s smile;
An entire planet so woefully alone;
Empathy as a simulation;
Existing
for a singular
purpose;
Reaching out into the void:
An entire species so hopelessly devoted
to finding anything more
than what
we have become.
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I never really thought it would come to this,
I mean sure,
I had an idea of how my life would turn out;
I was well aware that loneliness was an inevitability;
But, I guess I didn’t quite understand
how far down the rabbit hole
the depth of longing could go;
I assumed,
like everyone else,
that one day
everything would change.
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The perilous foray into another heart,
interchange as yet unseen:
Unique moments share by individual beings;
And for all the constructs,
even outright lies;
Two bodies shall remain so,
united by a single mind;
Until one day,
one half can no longer return;
And even the most eloquent words fail to describe:
A tether unbound.
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c2016
Jacob Michael Peter Welch