^ I got to the point I was throwing the shit up, ginger cordial was a godsend back then, I would get anxious knowing I had to taste that shit, but ginger cordial cured my anxiety
I was addicted for around 2 years. Was dosing 2 times daily for around 12 months.
Tried tapering, but with life and family it was impossible.
So 14 days of absolute shit. I done an extremely rapid bupe taper using, I think, 2mg all up, split into 4 bits.
.25mg the first night, .5mg the next 3 and .25mg on the last. I slept proabaly 4 hours in that time. It fucking sucked.
If I didn't have absolute free time, I'd still be chugging that horse cum tasting shit.
The half life is what drilled me, endlessly feeling like shit, day in day out.
Little bit of etiz helped a tonne too.
For me I would have rathered been addicted to a short acting opiate/opioid. Get that pain out of the way harsh and quick.
Fucking pst wd's drag on longer than you'd expect.
Not worth it IMO.
I had a dabble about three months after and fucking hated myself for it for a week.
I will say one thing, in the weeks the shit was finally getting out of my system, I felt like a new man, I loved life again. But that's ended and I'm back where I was before I started using, go figure. I won't go back to using , but benzos are now my new thing to be extremely careful with to get me through.
There's no point to comparing it to herion or most opiates, the half life is fucked up, and that's what brought me to my demise.
Feel free to pm me asking any questions if I can help, it's NOT impossible at all to quit.