i really think i need help.i'm only fourteen(turnin 15 on the 25th).i've been doing drugs for awhile.mostly xanax,weed,hash,coke,perc,and oxycodon.recently i've been smoking cigarrets alot.i know want to try heroin,im gettin it tomorrow,about a gram.my lifes been so fucked up.my g/f just dumped me,even tho she had no reason to.no one in my life has ever told me "its ok bill,everythings gonna get better" or "i'll always be there for you no matter what".i tried so hard but it didnt work.i hate feeling like this.every morning the first thing i think about is drug,and how i'll get money for them.i used to lift weights all the time but i just care to anymore.tonite so far i've taken 6 xanax and smoked a pack of cigarretts.i want to be happy,but i cant find anything to be happy about.i dont even trust myself anymore.nothing seems to make me happy besides drugs.i've just been so confuzed but noone cares or wants to.i jusr want to be happy again....
well thanks for reading mt stupid babbling,flame me if you want,i dont care anymore...
well thanks for reading mt stupid babbling,flame me if you want,i dont care anymore...