I havent smoked crack since halloween 2022 and yet it still consumes a large part of my thoughts thinking about it multiple times a day. Ive got a small bit of extra money and hit up my guy how I havent talked to in 6 months. No telling if hes gonna be able to do it or if he will he hasn't answered back yet but here I am sitting here wondering "do I want him to come through?" or "maybe its better off if he doesn't answer. Ive already dug out my old antenna that gave me bell ringers every time compared to those shitty rose pipes that always crack down the middle and all I can think about is that phone alerting me to a text hopefully saying "yeah man come on through its ready". If he answers and comes through I only have enough money to smoke about 2 grams and then I wont be able to afford anymore for a long time and its just gonna renew my obsession with it and it will be fresh on my mind all the time as compared to only sometimes with 6 months clean. I really REALLY want to smoke but I know deep down Im better off if I don't I just love the shit so much everything about it , packing the chore melting it perfect, twisting the pipe and dancing the flame to get that perfect huge smooth hit that you feel straight down into your balls, hitting it where you are getting so much smoke you worry it could be too much but you keep inhaling anyway. GOD I HOPE HE ANSWERS!!!! Or do I ?