bluedolphin
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So, a little background.
Both myself and my girlfriend have our share of what could be called "mental illness".
Mine came about 4-5 years ago, with symptoms of stress, general and social anxiety, deep depression, reckless behavior, excessive drug and alcohol use, insomnia, and so on. I was eventually evaluated and diagnosed "Bi-Polar II" after I had to drop out of my fifth year of college due to my condition. I was prescribed drugs including Trazadone, Ambien, and Lamictal. I found Trazadone gave me a shitty buzz before knocking me on my ass, and had no positive effects on my mood, instead making me more tired and depressed. Ambien was fun at first but ultimately useless. I never took the Lamictal after reading it's bizarre side effect profile. It was during this time that I became dependent on unprescribed benzos, especially Valium and Xanax. These drugs allowed me to sleep and deal with social situations. Much of the time I counteracted the sedation with a steady supply of unprescribed Adderall. And this is not to mention chronic Cannabis smoking and frequent use of psychedelics.
My girlfriend, who I hesitate to describe in much detail, well I'll just say that she has been diagnosed and prescribed here there and back again. Our mental condition has a lot in common, but I am three years older (25) and have had more time to reflect and heal.
Over the last three years since I finally quit benzos, left a long and destructive prior relationship, spent some time in the woods and got a steady job, I am mostly healed. Or, possibly, mentally more fit than I ever would have been otherwise.
But when I met the girl I now love completely, she was still on Seroquel, Topamax, and Ativan which were really dulling her life. She wanted to get off them and I was convinced it was possible if she had loving support, determination, and maybe I could show her a few things from my experience as somebody who "recovered", at least in great part, by my own will and changes in lifestyle.
To make a long story short, this has not been easy. There have been good times, there have been bad times, you know. Since my sense of wellbeing is now connected with hers, we find ourselves in a position where we are now really having to look out for each other as we look out for ourselves. Through this we have formed an incredible bond.
===This is where I get to the point...===
Piracetam was first discovered by me, oh, about 2004. I would take it with my Adderall to smooth the effects and give me an extra mental boost for class. Like, before I flunked outta college...
Fast forward to now. We have been through everything from fish oil to 5-HTP to vitamins to kava tea to every homeopathic style medicine. Greatly reducing alcohol intake. Regular ganja (works for me!) but only after the day's tasks are done. Going to the gym.
And you know all this stuff is great. But Piracetam is a miracle cure.
About three weeks ago we both have been regularly taking Piracetam. Myself usually in once a day 4000mg or so doses, sometimes with other dosing patterns though. She, I guess, has been taking similar doses.
For me, I have more positive energy, appreciation of daily life, much more stable mood, things don't bother me as much, more focus, and I feel more rational. I don't get wrapped up in negative thoughts. My sex drive has increased as well.
For her, it stops the "bad thoughts"... well I can't say in as much detail but she actually told me, "This Piracetam is saving my life". She is always her wonderful self when she takes the Piracetam and as a result our relationship is absolutely wonderful.
I am thinking about getting some Hydergine so maybe we can take lower doses with great effects.
Piracetam
Both myself and my girlfriend have our share of what could be called "mental illness".
Mine came about 4-5 years ago, with symptoms of stress, general and social anxiety, deep depression, reckless behavior, excessive drug and alcohol use, insomnia, and so on. I was eventually evaluated and diagnosed "Bi-Polar II" after I had to drop out of my fifth year of college due to my condition. I was prescribed drugs including Trazadone, Ambien, and Lamictal. I found Trazadone gave me a shitty buzz before knocking me on my ass, and had no positive effects on my mood, instead making me more tired and depressed. Ambien was fun at first but ultimately useless. I never took the Lamictal after reading it's bizarre side effect profile. It was during this time that I became dependent on unprescribed benzos, especially Valium and Xanax. These drugs allowed me to sleep and deal with social situations. Much of the time I counteracted the sedation with a steady supply of unprescribed Adderall. And this is not to mention chronic Cannabis smoking and frequent use of psychedelics.
My girlfriend, who I hesitate to describe in much detail, well I'll just say that she has been diagnosed and prescribed here there and back again. Our mental condition has a lot in common, but I am three years older (25) and have had more time to reflect and heal.
Over the last three years since I finally quit benzos, left a long and destructive prior relationship, spent some time in the woods and got a steady job, I am mostly healed. Or, possibly, mentally more fit than I ever would have been otherwise.
But when I met the girl I now love completely, she was still on Seroquel, Topamax, and Ativan which were really dulling her life. She wanted to get off them and I was convinced it was possible if she had loving support, determination, and maybe I could show her a few things from my experience as somebody who "recovered", at least in great part, by my own will and changes in lifestyle.
To make a long story short, this has not been easy. There have been good times, there have been bad times, you know. Since my sense of wellbeing is now connected with hers, we find ourselves in a position where we are now really having to look out for each other as we look out for ourselves. Through this we have formed an incredible bond.
===This is where I get to the point...===
Piracetam was first discovered by me, oh, about 2004. I would take it with my Adderall to smooth the effects and give me an extra mental boost for class. Like, before I flunked outta college...
Fast forward to now. We have been through everything from fish oil to 5-HTP to vitamins to kava tea to every homeopathic style medicine. Greatly reducing alcohol intake. Regular ganja (works for me!) but only after the day's tasks are done. Going to the gym.
And you know all this stuff is great. But Piracetam is a miracle cure.
About three weeks ago we both have been regularly taking Piracetam. Myself usually in once a day 4000mg or so doses, sometimes with other dosing patterns though. She, I guess, has been taking similar doses.
For me, I have more positive energy, appreciation of daily life, much more stable mood, things don't bother me as much, more focus, and I feel more rational. I don't get wrapped up in negative thoughts. My sex drive has increased as well.
For her, it stops the "bad thoughts"... well I can't say in as much detail but she actually told me, "This Piracetam is saving my life". She is always her wonderful self when she takes the Piracetam and as a result our relationship is absolutely wonderful.
I am thinking about getting some Hydergine so maybe we can take lower doses with great effects.
Piracetam