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MCJ
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I have been with my boyfriend for almost two years. We live together and we both attend University (where we met).
For the past five to six months, we have gotten into arguments and he has gotten abusive. He will closed fist punch me, but never in the face. More so in the arms...and tonight the foot. My foot is starting to swell and it hurts like hell. I started crying and he shoved my towel (i just showered) in my mouth. I think the pressure from the towel might have given me like a "towel burn" on the side of my mouth/lips.
I love him, but I feel like I cant help him change. Sometimes I have to try to hit him back to defend myself and I hate that he is making me become this person. It's gotten so bad that I feel psychologically unstable. We are both from southern california and attend school in northern california, so i cant just move back home with my parents or quit school. Our lease isn't up until December, and all my belongings are here. I know I could stay with a friend, but no one knows about this abuse and I have a kitten who I know I cant take with me. I have tried so many times to leave and end it but he NEVER allows it to happen. He knows that because we live together he has this hold on me.
My question is, is there anything I can do or someone professional I can call? Neither of us drink/do drugs. We are both in our early early 20's (hes a year older), and we are both full-time students. If anyone has been in this type of situation and has advice please comment.
Sidenote: Theres been instances where its not just punching. I've been slapped, i have had my hair pulled, and ive been dragged across carpet (i have a scar from the rug burn.) The newest form has been him throwing water on me. Whenever I "talk back" or say something he doesntlike he will throw wate ron me in order to "cool me down". Im not sure why he does it, but it always makes me cry. When I cry, he just gts more angry and tells me i'm being too emotional or will mimic my crying. I'm just so psychologically messed up, and dont know how to escape anymore.
-M.
For the past five to six months, we have gotten into arguments and he has gotten abusive. He will closed fist punch me, but never in the face. More so in the arms...and tonight the foot. My foot is starting to swell and it hurts like hell. I started crying and he shoved my towel (i just showered) in my mouth. I think the pressure from the towel might have given me like a "towel burn" on the side of my mouth/lips.
I love him, but I feel like I cant help him change. Sometimes I have to try to hit him back to defend myself and I hate that he is making me become this person. It's gotten so bad that I feel psychologically unstable. We are both from southern california and attend school in northern california, so i cant just move back home with my parents or quit school. Our lease isn't up until December, and all my belongings are here. I know I could stay with a friend, but no one knows about this abuse and I have a kitten who I know I cant take with me. I have tried so many times to leave and end it but he NEVER allows it to happen. He knows that because we live together he has this hold on me.
My question is, is there anything I can do or someone professional I can call? Neither of us drink/do drugs. We are both in our early early 20's (hes a year older), and we are both full-time students. If anyone has been in this type of situation and has advice please comment.
Sidenote: Theres been instances where its not just punching. I've been slapped, i have had my hair pulled, and ive been dragged across carpet (i have a scar from the rug burn.) The newest form has been him throwing water on me. Whenever I "talk back" or say something he doesntlike he will throw wate ron me in order to "cool me down". Im not sure why he does it, but it always makes me cry. When I cry, he just gts more angry and tells me i'm being too emotional or will mimic my crying. I'm just so psychologically messed up, and dont know how to escape anymore.
-M.