i have recently been thinking about the long term effects that drug taking has been having on both my physcial and mental wellbeing and development. here are some thoughts on what i have noticed about myself through various drug taking stages of my life.
when i was young i smoked a fair bit of hash and i found that i gradually became more and more lethargic and disinterested in my school and work. basically i couldn't be bothered to do anything. that is why is stopped.
then i moved on to drinking rather large quantities of alcohol and at the same time found i was becoming a somewhat aggressive, short tempered biggot. i was not such a nice person to be around. i am talking in general, not just when under the influence of alcohol.
then i discovered ecstacy and i feel that my personality became a lot less aggressive and more understanding and empathetic in my views of the world and of other indivduals. i learnt to love and understand not only myself, but others as well.
G was next on the list. all i can say is that i felt i became a little bit silly when i was in my G stage.
now i am finding my main drug of use is probably K. i am starting to notice that i have become a bit withdrawn from society and indifferent to the plight of others. the ups and downs of life just seem matter of fact. i feel like an observer of life, not like a participant.
in summary, i think that my general personality is mirroring the short term mood altering effects of the drugs i am consuming.
i think it is stating the obvious to say that drugs have a mood altering ability on us whilst they are actually running around our systems, but what are others opinions on drugs altering your general personality, long after the drugs have been flushed from our systems when we believe our minds and bodies to be 'clean'.
my initial thoughts are that whilst under the influence of drugs or other mood altering means like meditation or tutoring, that our minds are being 'trained' to act in this new way, and that with enough training it slowly becomes habit to act in the way that we have been 'training' our minds.
have others found that there drug usage not only determines their personality whilst under the direct influence of that drug BUT that their general personality tends to shift towards the mood altering effects that these drugs?
when i was young i smoked a fair bit of hash and i found that i gradually became more and more lethargic and disinterested in my school and work. basically i couldn't be bothered to do anything. that is why is stopped.
then i moved on to drinking rather large quantities of alcohol and at the same time found i was becoming a somewhat aggressive, short tempered biggot. i was not such a nice person to be around. i am talking in general, not just when under the influence of alcohol.
then i discovered ecstacy and i feel that my personality became a lot less aggressive and more understanding and empathetic in my views of the world and of other indivduals. i learnt to love and understand not only myself, but others as well.
G was next on the list. all i can say is that i felt i became a little bit silly when i was in my G stage.
now i am finding my main drug of use is probably K. i am starting to notice that i have become a bit withdrawn from society and indifferent to the plight of others. the ups and downs of life just seem matter of fact. i feel like an observer of life, not like a participant.
in summary, i think that my general personality is mirroring the short term mood altering effects of the drugs i am consuming.
i think it is stating the obvious to say that drugs have a mood altering ability on us whilst they are actually running around our systems, but what are others opinions on drugs altering your general personality, long after the drugs have been flushed from our systems when we believe our minds and bodies to be 'clean'.
my initial thoughts are that whilst under the influence of drugs or other mood altering means like meditation or tutoring, that our minds are being 'trained' to act in this new way, and that with enough training it slowly becomes habit to act in the way that we have been 'training' our minds.
have others found that there drug usage not only determines their personality whilst under the direct influence of that drug BUT that their general personality tends to shift towards the mood altering effects that these drugs?