This is only my personal opinion, I’m not interested in start any controversy or proposing, suggesting any kind of alternative, cure or solution.
I was really affected mentally and emotional buy my drug abuse choices, that bad all these madness escalated to the point, i lose my mind, to the way to forget all about who i was, that breaking point it wasn’t the scariest because my brain, lose their capacity to distinguish between reality and all kind of depersonalization delusions.
When I started abusing, the way illegal substances, the secrecy and sophistication arround this tactical marketing, made the whole experience out of this world, European perfectionism level up the ilegal drug business in to a high class experience a pristine way to impress and hook naive people from under developed countries or any other country arround the world.
The psicodelia foundations reformulated into early futurism was an exquisite extrasensorial profitable execution.
Now at my 40s can get how huge was this business back then, how far support countries economies, if from Colombia stims or Rotterdam psychodelics, or even from WW2 nazi laboratory in Germany, formulating a chemical weapon, the way theses gigants underestimate the long term side effects dehumanize all possible trials in the world.
This particularly system failure, showing up the way billionaire trials needed substances get approved, or the way some other aproved substances lead in health horrid catastrophies and crisis, the way some particular sector or specific families get huge economical benefits, make me feel be part of a horrid human experimentation.
Medical elite brings out information from a reduced selection of trials or specific fatalities reports.
I passed thru horrid experiences, that could be prevented. People in the trials knew could be a huge health problem, but never reported, or formulated a prevention plan, the only thing they did released anti propaganda with horrid photos of poly substance abuse hard users to keep population afraid and holding on wrong information.
All gov, big pharma, media , medical elite, suppporting and contributing into misinformation and into underestimate the importance to release punctual and real information about prevention, recreational safe use, or how to react in a emergency, in my personal view, they demonized a substance with non related critical cases as a way to educate people from a war weapon, a crime against humanity. A decade or two later, thousands of minds in the way to be undone, or permanently lost, because countries are so greedy and incapable to control their own Labs and it’s trials and how formulas looks desperately get a FDA ok
FDA should be responsible to at least be supportive with precise information about how to treat side effects sequels with those who badly affected by its own approved substances, even if they’re discontinued, this FDA guys absolutely suffers from a god complex, a unwanted enotourage of pharmaceutical billionaires, waiting to their placebos to be approved, with the convenience there is not any radical cure on their catalog.
I feel fortunate to bring my mind from the limits of madness.
They made billions based on people’s suffering ultimate pill with horrid side effects that is just focusing in pain modulation but not in it’s termination.
The day a pill terminate with any specific pain, the day pharmaceutical billionaire business ends.
For a while I keep looking for a pharmaceutical treatment for the affections of certain drugs and getting only overinflated charges for useless extravagant time wasting bull shit, like the magnetic pulses over my brain that only sums into the doctors bank account balance.
I don’t know how exactly I recovered my mind, but it wasn’t from anything pharmaceutical or medical, I self decided to suspend antipsychotic treatment because I act like a zombie even can’t hold my saliva, it was horrible, the love from my family and there personal decision to stop taking prescription drugs supported by my common sense and gut feeling, brings me back.
This is not an advice, suggestion, nothing, to anyone, this is only my personal path facing this hell unknowing the consequences because the way holding back information system failed me. im unique so others, and I’m far to be a pro or expert in any medical area.
Every single mental issue need to be diagnosed and treated by a professional.
This is only a way to let it go all this shit because still experimenting emotional breakdowns from losing myself trauma, letting go is my only porpoise of this thread.
I deserve to be happy with no difficulties as any other human being.
I keep respecting those heroes who saves lives into its own medical specialities, sometimes to get a right diagnose it’s not that easy. It’s no ones fault.
Abusing substances it’s a personal choice, knowing it’s not a good choice.
In not justifying anything about a bad choice decision.
At first I thought share my experience could help to prevent someone to something, but human nature it’s what it is, tendency to experimentation even knowing how bad a simple decision making could turn.
This is for my self, because I also realize lowing expectations about how people reacts, high possibilities to be satisfied in the way I feel after speak up openly over my mental background.
The way normies see drug addicts it’s very upsetting, practically we’re at the bottom of everything possible unwanted or nasty. I still working on accepting their vision, my choices made my adult life different, but saving my self, from myself undoing my existence, make feel a remarkable survivor form a sort of unknown human experiments, validated by only one ultimate federation.
Invalidating and undervalue a human life from its system failures, it’s least profesional or honorable, it’s only the easiest way to take distance from feeling part of the problem and even far from a be part of a solution.
That’s why all rehabs in the world are leaded by other addicts.
Anyways
It’s possible to bring yourself back, it’s possible to be happy again. It takes years but it’s possible.
I was really affected mentally and emotional buy my drug abuse choices, that bad all these madness escalated to the point, i lose my mind, to the way to forget all about who i was, that breaking point it wasn’t the scariest because my brain, lose their capacity to distinguish between reality and all kind of depersonalization delusions.
When I started abusing, the way illegal substances, the secrecy and sophistication arround this tactical marketing, made the whole experience out of this world, European perfectionism level up the ilegal drug business in to a high class experience a pristine way to impress and hook naive people from under developed countries or any other country arround the world.
The psicodelia foundations reformulated into early futurism was an exquisite extrasensorial profitable execution.
Now at my 40s can get how huge was this business back then, how far support countries economies, if from Colombia stims or Rotterdam psychodelics, or even from WW2 nazi laboratory in Germany, formulating a chemical weapon, the way theses gigants underestimate the long term side effects dehumanize all possible trials in the world.
This particularly system failure, showing up the way billionaire trials needed substances get approved, or the way some other aproved substances lead in health horrid catastrophies and crisis, the way some particular sector or specific families get huge economical benefits, make me feel be part of a horrid human experimentation.
Medical elite brings out information from a reduced selection of trials or specific fatalities reports.
I passed thru horrid experiences, that could be prevented. People in the trials knew could be a huge health problem, but never reported, or formulated a prevention plan, the only thing they did released anti propaganda with horrid photos of poly substance abuse hard users to keep population afraid and holding on wrong information.
All gov, big pharma, media , medical elite, suppporting and contributing into misinformation and into underestimate the importance to release punctual and real information about prevention, recreational safe use, or how to react in a emergency, in my personal view, they demonized a substance with non related critical cases as a way to educate people from a war weapon, a crime against humanity. A decade or two later, thousands of minds in the way to be undone, or permanently lost, because countries are so greedy and incapable to control their own Labs and it’s trials and how formulas looks desperately get a FDA ok
FDA should be responsible to at least be supportive with precise information about how to treat side effects sequels with those who badly affected by its own approved substances, even if they’re discontinued, this FDA guys absolutely suffers from a god complex, a unwanted enotourage of pharmaceutical billionaires, waiting to their placebos to be approved, with the convenience there is not any radical cure on their catalog.
I feel fortunate to bring my mind from the limits of madness.
They made billions based on people’s suffering ultimate pill with horrid side effects that is just focusing in pain modulation but not in it’s termination.
The day a pill terminate with any specific pain, the day pharmaceutical billionaire business ends.
For a while I keep looking for a pharmaceutical treatment for the affections of certain drugs and getting only overinflated charges for useless extravagant time wasting bull shit, like the magnetic pulses over my brain that only sums into the doctors bank account balance.
I don’t know how exactly I recovered my mind, but it wasn’t from anything pharmaceutical or medical, I self decided to suspend antipsychotic treatment because I act like a zombie even can’t hold my saliva, it was horrible, the love from my family and there personal decision to stop taking prescription drugs supported by my common sense and gut feeling, brings me back.
This is not an advice, suggestion, nothing, to anyone, this is only my personal path facing this hell unknowing the consequences because the way holding back information system failed me. im unique so others, and I’m far to be a pro or expert in any medical area.
Every single mental issue need to be diagnosed and treated by a professional.
This is only a way to let it go all this shit because still experimenting emotional breakdowns from losing myself trauma, letting go is my only porpoise of this thread.
I deserve to be happy with no difficulties as any other human being.
I keep respecting those heroes who saves lives into its own medical specialities, sometimes to get a right diagnose it’s not that easy. It’s no ones fault.
Abusing substances it’s a personal choice, knowing it’s not a good choice.
In not justifying anything about a bad choice decision.
At first I thought share my experience could help to prevent someone to something, but human nature it’s what it is, tendency to experimentation even knowing how bad a simple decision making could turn.
This is for my self, because I also realize lowing expectations about how people reacts, high possibilities to be satisfied in the way I feel after speak up openly over my mental background.
The way normies see drug addicts it’s very upsetting, practically we’re at the bottom of everything possible unwanted or nasty. I still working on accepting their vision, my choices made my adult life different, but saving my self, from myself undoing my existence, make feel a remarkable survivor form a sort of unknown human experiments, validated by only one ultimate federation.
Invalidating and undervalue a human life from its system failures, it’s least profesional or honorable, it’s only the easiest way to take distance from feeling part of the problem and even far from a be part of a solution.
That’s why all rehabs in the world are leaded by other addicts.
Anyways
It’s possible to bring yourself back, it’s possible to be happy again. It takes years but it’s possible.
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