Well...it has opened my eyes in directions i might not have looked otherwise. Some of the things I have seen I have loved, other things I can say I deeply regret.
Believe me, I never intended to eat so many. I kind of fell in love with it, started munching hard, and didnt stop for about 4 year. I knew after the second year it was time to slow down, cause it was starting to scatter me, but free supplies from buddies, and mates who just loved it, kept me running, even though i was running on empty.
Nowadays, I dont chow every weekend, but when i do it often goes overboard (like 5 pills). I find it hard to just have one, as i;m so used to it, that i always seem to cringe for that old feeling, that always slightly evades me.
Dont get me wrong, its still the best fun. In terms of mental damage, I still feel 100% right up top, and my business career hasnt been affected. However, I do sometimes feel depressed and a little lost, sometimes i cry for no reason (or is there really a reason), and sometimes i feel really lonely (evern though i have ample friends and a loving extended family).
I'm gonna take it EeEzy from now on, but i'll still go out when soemthing good comes up, or have friends round for the occasional E party. How could I not!!??? I'm just gonna have to slow down on it.
I do definately worry sometimes about the Long Term damage that may spring up into my face in the coming years. But as you will realise, and many other people will tell you, if you start thinking about mental disorders and fixating yourself on 'what might happen', you might all of a sudden create a problem out of nothing. My theory is apathy is the best policy.
Have fun, and dont look back...cause its scary now.
IRS...International Rashen Squadron
[This message has been edited by MPIRE_ONE (edited 18 October 2000).]