Hello PD. Missed ya all. Been on hiatus but I am doing very well after one crazy summer. Dare I say the best I've been since 2013. But good mental health is tenuous, or seems like it can be for me, so I am treading carefully. Cautious but also happy and proud of my hard work.
Xor and Kaleida....I know I owe ya some PMs.
I'll have to catch up on some posts now.
Hey man, what's up?? I've been worried about you. Really glad to hear things have been going well.
@xorkoth:
lyrica can be a sort of relaxant, but if you're taking higher doses and would be getting some additional gabaB agonism from phenibut that could be trouble as that might make it more of a muscle relaxant?
kegel exercises and keeping an eye on these particular cuprits (thank god i dont take K anymore) should do the trick.
Not sure if you thought I was taking lyrica and phenibut together, but it's just phenibut, I would take lyrica if someone gave me some, gladly, but I wouldn't combine them.
I had the weirdest dream last night. My ex and I were together in it (no idea why I keep having these dreams where we're still together, I guess it's just because we were together from age 18 to 30, takes more than 3 years to clear that out), and we were in bed, and this guy I really like in real life who is a member of my friend's band (and ironically first tried out for our band to replace that same friend) was in the room with us, and he was being really creepy, he kept not leaving even though we were trying to have privacy and then he came over and started rubbing my ex's back. So I got pissed and jumped out of bed and told him to get the fuck out. He started getting offended and saying I'd regret it if I didn't let him do whatever he wanted. I chased him through the house trying to get him to leave, and he told me that he's been watching us having sex and wants to get in on it, so I got really pissed and told him I was gonna call the cops. So I tried calling 911 but it was like there were popup ads for 911, I had to sit and listen through several audio advertisements for this and that bullshit. Finally I got someone on the line and they like, yeah I guess we'll send someone, this is pretty low priority though. Then my friend (who had become my mortal enemy in the dream) got all sinister and angry and was like, you better call them off, because you know what? I have video cameras installed all around your house and I've got it all on video, and I'm gonna put it online if the cops come. I got so blindingly angry, I just started chasing him around trying to beat his ass.
I still remember how intensely angry I was, it was a really vivid dream and I was fucking PISSED at him, realistically so because it was also a betrayal from a friend. I woke up at some point in the midst of rage, and like every time when I have a dream where I'm with my ex, my first thought was, "damn it, what the fuck, I love my girlfriend, why did I do that?? What am I going to do??" Then I realized it was a dream and I felt an immense sense of relief.
Dreams are so weird. Like, where did all that come from?
