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Yes, your totally right and I actually just found out some information about Zyprexa withdrawals and it is making me rethink tripping for awhile until I get better. As I've been speaking about this week I have had horrible insomnia since I stopped taking it. What also has been happening I didn't mention is I'm getting these terrible anxiety attacks especially after I drink caffeine which have been troubling.
The past two days I've had this nauseous feeling setting in after I had my coffee today I was forced to lay in bed for hours hiding under the covers before I had to get dressed now and walk to work.
Well I have all these symptoms so I decided to do research on Zyprexa Withdrawals and found troubling results it actually causes pretty severe withdrawal symptoms for four weeks after you discontinued the medication. Things like nausea, diarrhea, insomnia, muscle pain, anxiety, irritability, delusions...all sorts of lovely things and people have complications even weaning off. I went ahead and jumped off cold turkey at 10mgs so I may be in for a tough month. Well atleast I know what's going on with me now and that makes me feel a little better. I'm gonna try and cut caffeine out of my diet maybe have one cup of tea in the morning and that's it. But yeah I'm super excited to trip but thinking I should wait until I feel completely normal, it's deff a bad idea to dose something if I can't even tolerate a cup of fucking coffee properly.
I'm gonna get thru this tho and have off for the next three days so I'm just gonna eat bland foods and drink alot of water, rest as much as possible. Save the Diphenhydramine only for nights before I work the next day so I will deff get some sleep cuz some of these days the past week I have gotten like three hours and it's starting to wear on me. I'm about to walk into work in ten minutes and I feel better than I did this morning so I will be alright tonight I'm just gonna avoid the soda machine and eat like an egg sandwich when I get hungry later. But yeah I have to not rush things psychedelic wise and your right Xorky about how I wanna trip to soon together it's deff much better when you spread it out and it's best if I don't get into that pattern again and truly give things at least a two week break when I do start up. But yeah right now I'm just gonna focus on getting past these withdrawals and being in a state of normalcy. Some of the threads on Reddit we're pretty revealing about what this drug causes.
I didn't realize that APs had such a shitty withdrawal syndrome. Well, that sucks. But I'm sure you'll be able to make it through. It must be a relief to realize what was wrong, if you've been feeling shitty. It makes it a lot worse, in general, when you feel like shit, when you don't even know why. If you know it's withdrawals, you can also know it's normal you'd be feeling this way, and that before long, you'll be fine.
I totally get that. Having a feeling of purpose is huge. Before I rediscovered music, I was sort of just plugging along, feeling like I wasn't doing anything exciting or noteworthy with my time. And that was even with a good career job, but just one that isn't my passion. It can take a long time to figure out what you want to do with your life, and then do it. Making money is good, but feeling satisfied with your life and doing something with your time that you feel good about, and having things to look forward to on a day to day basis is even more important. Maybe you can think about what it is you love to do, and figure out some way to get involved with doing that thing regularly, even if it isn't in terms of a job? Sometimes just dipping your toes into the world of a hobby or interest can lead to long-term changes in your life as you slowly become involved in it.
And I'll echo Buzz, in that having a daily workout routine can make such a huge difference to the way you feel, and your levels of motivation and discipline. It's transformative in more ways than you would think... it goes WAY beyond just having muscle and feeling in shape.
Being off opiates will help your mood and especially the mood swings, once you get past the initial stage of everything feeling worse, anyway. But by itself it won't just totally fix everything, it just makes it easier to get what you want out of life because you don't have this constant source of ups and downs and self-disgust bothering you. It's really the combination of both that will allow you to reinvent your life. I still love my life overall, despite the addiction, because I have things about my life that I love, my career (which I am much more into since my promotion than I was before), and my music. But I still struggle a lot because of the intense mood swings and disappointment in myself, due to opiates. But without the stuff in my life that brings me happiness, I would still be missing something if I got off opiates and got back to feel physically good without them. My girlfriend has sobriety down to professional levels, but I am happier than her, because I know what I want and am doing it. She struggles with the same stuff you do, of not knowing what to do with her life, or not being able to take the first steps (or some of both in her case).
The struggle is real. Life is intense, but one of the cool things about it is that every day you wake up, there are countless possibilities for how you can choose to live it. Generally, the first steps are the hardest. Once you pick a few steps to take and then take them, you start to build momentum and additional changes become easier.
only one half strength one in the morning, otherwise I end up yawning and wasting time before and when finally in the shower.
