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Psychedelic Induced Panic Attacks - Vision Turning Black
I posted this in my thread over in Sober Living but I figured it might get more responses here...
On saturday I partook in a 600 mg dxm trip (which was surprisingly light - despite the lack of tolerance) in an attempt to gain insight into my most recent relapse into drinking. It was an enjoyable time spent mostly with friends, followed by some time alone relaxing where I got some valuable insight into my (poor) choices of late. I had a toke at around 10 hours and all was good. Then I visited a friend around 12 hours and got righteously stoned.
This is where things got weird. I was overcome with anxiety as my thoughts began to race - failing chemistry and thus losing my school loans, having to move in a month, broke as F***, over and over. My vision became black, not such that I couldnt see or tunnel vision but it was like a black haze over everything. Like the negative thoughts I was experiencing were being externalized visually. This has happened on a few physcedlic trips before - .3 g MDA/4 blotters of LSD, 2 blotters LSD/ 20 mg 2CT7 and another 9 blotter LSD experience, as well as one time really hungover and after a few kombuchas which contained moderate levels of caffeine. All of which occured during high stress periods of my life.
"No way, not now, how?" ... Despite my desire to answer these questions the time for thinking was not know.
STOP! Focus on the your breath. Inhalation, pause, exhalation, pause. The rise of the belly, the fall of the belly.
A few minutes later I was out of this panic attack? spiritual / emotional crisis? Call it what you will.
My friend never seemed to notice and I was apprehensive to talk to him about it afterwards in fear of "it" returning. Why? Im not sure. He is also experienced with altered states. I stuck around for a few hours to calm down before heading home.
The following day was as any other, despite being tired. Strangely enough I was tempted to drink last night but refrained.
...
Obviously set and setting play a huge role in these types of experiences and given I was reluctant to choose a "heavier" psychedelic. What I find strange though is that it occurred so late in the experience (obviously, in my opinion, brought on by the pot - which is known to cause anxiety attacks in some, though Ive never experienced anxiety attacks induced by pot it has caused me some anxiety in the past but not recently).
Suppose what Im curious about has anyone experienced this darkening of vision during a panic attack? Psychedelic or other experience?
Thanks
TOC
I posted this in my thread over in Sober Living but I figured it might get more responses here...
On saturday I partook in a 600 mg dxm trip (which was surprisingly light - despite the lack of tolerance) in an attempt to gain insight into my most recent relapse into drinking. It was an enjoyable time spent mostly with friends, followed by some time alone relaxing where I got some valuable insight into my (poor) choices of late. I had a toke at around 10 hours and all was good. Then I visited a friend around 12 hours and got righteously stoned.
This is where things got weird. I was overcome with anxiety as my thoughts began to race - failing chemistry and thus losing my school loans, having to move in a month, broke as F***, over and over. My vision became black, not such that I couldnt see or tunnel vision but it was like a black haze over everything. Like the negative thoughts I was experiencing were being externalized visually. This has happened on a few physcedlic trips before - .3 g MDA/4 blotters of LSD, 2 blotters LSD/ 20 mg 2CT7 and another 9 blotter LSD experience, as well as one time really hungover and after a few kombuchas which contained moderate levels of caffeine. All of which occured during high stress periods of my life.
"No way, not now, how?" ... Despite my desire to answer these questions the time for thinking was not know.
STOP! Focus on the your breath. Inhalation, pause, exhalation, pause. The rise of the belly, the fall of the belly.
A few minutes later I was out of this panic attack? spiritual / emotional crisis? Call it what you will.
My friend never seemed to notice and I was apprehensive to talk to him about it afterwards in fear of "it" returning. Why? Im not sure. He is also experienced with altered states. I stuck around for a few hours to calm down before heading home.
The following day was as any other, despite being tired. Strangely enough I was tempted to drink last night but refrained.
...
Obviously set and setting play a huge role in these types of experiences and given I was reluctant to choose a "heavier" psychedelic. What I find strange though is that it occurred so late in the experience (obviously, in my opinion, brought on by the pot - which is known to cause anxiety attacks in some, though Ive never experienced anxiety attacks induced by pot it has caused me some anxiety in the past but not recently).
Suppose what Im curious about has anyone experienced this darkening of vision during a panic attack? Psychedelic or other experience?
Thanks
TOC
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