patrickm88
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Hello,
My name is Pat. I have wanted to tell this story for a long time. I finally need to get it off of my chest. Everything that I am about to write is completely true. Today, I am 23 years old and I dont drink or smoke. I have smoked weed once, which got me very high. This was in September of 2012. Since then, I have not been 100% normal. Immediately after smoking and getting really high, I went to sleep thinking that it would all be gone the next morning. It wasn't. And for the next about 2 months it was complete hell for me. I felt high all day and night, I would have multiple panic attacks throughout the day at school. I saw images after I would look away from them for a very long amount of time. I would also see black dots and floaters. I would get a tingly sensation in my body, my body would feel stiff constantly. My hand eye coordination is a fraction of what it once was. Eventually I told my mom after about a month. It made me feel much better about the situation.
At Halloween time I realized that things were getting better and I did not have multiple panic attacks throughout the day. By December, I felt fine in my head. But i still saw the afterimages and floaters. Over time I got use to it, and honestly felt completely normal (got use to seeing the afterimages).
So fast forward to now December 2016 (over 4 years since I smoked). This was the only timed i ever actually smoked. As you can imagine, going through this terrible event did not make me want to smoke or try any drugs. And i haven't. I even stopped drinking a year ago. Over the past few weeks I began working out a lot. This has made the feelings of being high come back. I have panic attacks, terrible thoughts. Every time I work out, it gets worse. So i stopped working out. Eventually it will go away, its not completely away as of now.
This whole entire situation has made me so upset at God. I smoke weed once, like everyone else does at some point in their life. And this shit happens? What did i do to deserve this? fucking one time.
I recently discovered that their is a diagnoses to the after image seeing. It is called palinopsia. The high feelings is HPPD. i have nearly every symptom of it. It has been 4 years. I believe that this is just going to last forever? I can never work out? I can never have the body that i want to have because i smoked weed once? like what the fuck
I wanted to share this story with you guys. Does anyone know if there are any treatments to Palinopsia or HPPD? Anyone else going through this? Or know someone that is. Someone fucking make me feel better.
My name is Pat. I have wanted to tell this story for a long time. I finally need to get it off of my chest. Everything that I am about to write is completely true. Today, I am 23 years old and I dont drink or smoke. I have smoked weed once, which got me very high. This was in September of 2012. Since then, I have not been 100% normal. Immediately after smoking and getting really high, I went to sleep thinking that it would all be gone the next morning. It wasn't. And for the next about 2 months it was complete hell for me. I felt high all day and night, I would have multiple panic attacks throughout the day at school. I saw images after I would look away from them for a very long amount of time. I would also see black dots and floaters. I would get a tingly sensation in my body, my body would feel stiff constantly. My hand eye coordination is a fraction of what it once was. Eventually I told my mom after about a month. It made me feel much better about the situation.
At Halloween time I realized that things were getting better and I did not have multiple panic attacks throughout the day. By December, I felt fine in my head. But i still saw the afterimages and floaters. Over time I got use to it, and honestly felt completely normal (got use to seeing the afterimages).
So fast forward to now December 2016 (over 4 years since I smoked). This was the only timed i ever actually smoked. As you can imagine, going through this terrible event did not make me want to smoke or try any drugs. And i haven't. I even stopped drinking a year ago. Over the past few weeks I began working out a lot. This has made the feelings of being high come back. I have panic attacks, terrible thoughts. Every time I work out, it gets worse. So i stopped working out. Eventually it will go away, its not completely away as of now.
This whole entire situation has made me so upset at God. I smoke weed once, like everyone else does at some point in their life. And this shit happens? What did i do to deserve this? fucking one time.
I recently discovered that their is a diagnoses to the after image seeing. It is called palinopsia. The high feelings is HPPD. i have nearly every symptom of it. It has been 4 years. I believe that this is just going to last forever? I can never work out? I can never have the body that i want to have because i smoked weed once? like what the fuck
I wanted to share this story with you guys. Does anyone know if there are any treatments to Palinopsia or HPPD? Anyone else going through this? Or know someone that is. Someone fucking make me feel better.