Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
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How's everything coming along with this lefty - Has there been any progress on getting onto the bupe program?
no, not yet lil. ive sort of gone through a slump just recently to be honest, i pocketed a few"spares" of morphine from substituting for a few days which led to a bender that was meant to stop friday but continued through until just then
ive started going through a little post-depression and been a bit bummed today mostly - only reinstating the point i need to cut it as of my last fix i just had. ive also got a few IRL matters to deal with over the next few weeks as well where i cant afford to be doped up or battling wd's trying to stabilise myself.
ive still been checking out alternative treatment centres that mainly deal with the withdrawal process then build on your social skills through camps. a lot of them are religiously based or dont even involve any type of medical treatment for pain patients which sort of still has me steering clear that way, though my mind may change. some of the costs are also enough to put me off.
i havent updated this because ive had nothing positive to add, ive been going backwards. i have been speaking with counsellors online from time to time - www.counsellingonline.com.au - through the website MrIbis recommended in his thread. theyve been comforting through harder times and id suggest to anyone that they should visit the site whenver they feel they need to talk to anyone - its all anonymous as well
i still havent caught up with my therapist - thats how backwards my priorities have been.
oxy actually seems to be more of a Kappa agonist from some reading i did recently.
as opposed to a mu agonist?