Opi_Kid_Rock
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Dear Wonderfully insightful members of BL Forum,
Perhaps I should read the entire post on 'The Brain and Addiction' before posting this, however, I have to file my taxes; it's the last day; doing it last moment. I never touched Oxycodone and Oxycontin Brand Name my drug of choice since I had went almost cold turkey 6 days and 6 nights curled up in a ball in bed and then never touched the stuff for 4 weeks straight despite moodiness in my work-life. Now when I got a hold of 10 x 10 mgs of IR Oxycontin, I just snorted 2 this morning, 2 more in the afternoon, then 3! more just now in BENDER fashion. Seems like the break I took had at first lowered my tolerence as I felt nauseous after taking my first two in the morning and even nodded to sleep. I was like "great! tolerance down and I don't enjoy it that much anymore." Then suddenly I went demon on it. So today as mentioned above I consumed a whopping: 2 this morning, 2 in the afternoon 3pm, then 3! more just now at 10 pm. Why does one go demon when one misses the feeling? Why would it come back x-fold? the craving that is.
Perhaps I should read the entire post on 'The Brain and Addiction' before posting this, however, I have to file my taxes; it's the last day; doing it last moment. I never touched Oxycodone and Oxycontin Brand Name my drug of choice since I had went almost cold turkey 6 days and 6 nights curled up in a ball in bed and then never touched the stuff for 4 weeks straight despite moodiness in my work-life. Now when I got a hold of 10 x 10 mgs of IR Oxycontin, I just snorted 2 this morning, 2 more in the afternoon, then 3! more just now in BENDER fashion. Seems like the break I took had at first lowered my tolerence as I felt nauseous after taking my first two in the morning and even nodded to sleep. I was like "great! tolerance down and I don't enjoy it that much anymore." Then suddenly I went demon on it. So today as mentioned above I consumed a whopping: 2 this morning, 2 in the afternoon 3pm, then 3! more just now at 10 pm. Why does one go demon when one misses the feeling? Why would it come back x-fold? the craving that is.