I was recently involved in a trainwreck of an experience with Kratom (fst) where I went through a whole bottle 3 ml over the course of 6 hours and was found not breathing about an hour after I polished off the bottle. I knew this was a high dose but did not simply know that this stuff is lethal. I figured it was benign or like kava and hardly effective and find that the raw leaf is worthless. The enhanced product works alright so maybe I should go for that if I ever get the 'suicidal ideation' that everyone tells me I would need to try it again.
How much is "safe"? I'm a pretty hefty guy 230lbs 5' 11" and again I was vitally close to dying, I felt this was worse on me than 800 yes 800 mgs of oxycontin insulfated when I never really felt close to death and only know it was risky bc ppl on IRC were reacting as they might be expected to with the knowledge that a semi-naive opiate user just took 10 fking oxies up the nose. (apparently near death experiences with drugs manifest different from what common logic might suggest because it's hard to admit I fked up)
I can't afford to fail a drug test so it's hard to deal with the pain I'm in that should still be treated with opiates but isn't and no one will give me a second chance. That's kinda why I might try it again, lack of alternatives.
Thoughts? Does common knowledge here know that it's easy to lethally OD on Kratom FST?
How much is "safe"? I'm a pretty hefty guy 230lbs 5' 11" and again I was vitally close to dying, I felt this was worse on me than 800 yes 800 mgs of oxycontin insulfated when I never really felt close to death and only know it was risky bc ppl on IRC were reacting as they might be expected to with the knowledge that a semi-naive opiate user just took 10 fking oxies up the nose. (apparently near death experiences with drugs manifest different from what common logic might suggest because it's hard to admit I fked up)
I can't afford to fail a drug test so it's hard to deal with the pain I'm in that should still be treated with opiates but isn't and no one will give me a second chance. That's kinda why I might try it again, lack of alternatives.
Thoughts? Does common knowledge here know that it's easy to lethally OD on Kratom FST?