SickOfBeingHere
Greenlighter
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- Aug 14, 2016
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In May 2016 I overdosed on Gravol, hoping to die. I took 2,400 mg - I was home alone and nobody knew that I did this (and still don't).
When the Gravol started taking effect, I blacked out and only had brief periods of awareness - even though I wasn't fully aware that what was going on wasn't real (except for my own actions). I had major hallucinations that scare me - I thought I saw my mom and she was crying about something. In my brief periods of awareness I put my computer mouse on a different table and, fearing my mom might come back and find out that I was going to suffocate myself, I hid the plastic bag, elastic band, and my cellphone in a DVD. I don't know why I hid the cellphone.
When I started to gain full awareness I realized that I had put the drying rack and cat's placemat in the kitchen sink, the cover for the toilet lid on the bathroom door, I managed to tear the plug to the sink out, and when I went in my bedroom with a carton of chocolate milk, I discovered there were some insects under the bed. I thought the insects were a hallucination (after realizing my mom was never really there - I thought she left in her car to go get something but when I waited a while and noticed she wasn't returning I then realized she was never there to begin with) but when I went to make the hallucination go away, I touched one of them and screamed, dropping the carton of chocolate milk which spilled on the floor.
I put the drying rack, cat's placemat, and toilet lid's cover back in their proper places. I then fixed the plug and managed to re-connect it to the pipe correctly. I also cleaned up the mess from the chocolate milk and got rid of the insects. After this, I went to bed.
The next morning, when I woke up, I couldn't find my cellphone and freaked out, thinking I had left it on the Metrobus the day I overdosed. I looked everywhere for the cellphone and called the Metrobus company but was told that no cellphone was turned in. It was at this time that I noticed one of my DVDs looked fatter than normal. I opened the DVD case and discovered that not only was the cellphone there but also the plastic bag and rubber band I was going to use to end my life. I also found the pack of Gravol under the couch. I put the Gravol in the garbage and threw the garbage out before anyone found out what I had done.
I am wondering if anyone else ever overdosed on Gravol before and experienced the same things I experienced. I read another story online, but it was only about someone's hallucinations and they were in the hospital (since someone found out what they did).
If anyone else has a story like mine, feel free to share, I don't judge nor do I care if someone did it to get high - that was not my intention.
When the Gravol started taking effect, I blacked out and only had brief periods of awareness - even though I wasn't fully aware that what was going on wasn't real (except for my own actions). I had major hallucinations that scare me - I thought I saw my mom and she was crying about something. In my brief periods of awareness I put my computer mouse on a different table and, fearing my mom might come back and find out that I was going to suffocate myself, I hid the plastic bag, elastic band, and my cellphone in a DVD. I don't know why I hid the cellphone.
When I started to gain full awareness I realized that I had put the drying rack and cat's placemat in the kitchen sink, the cover for the toilet lid on the bathroom door, I managed to tear the plug to the sink out, and when I went in my bedroom with a carton of chocolate milk, I discovered there were some insects under the bed. I thought the insects were a hallucination (after realizing my mom was never really there - I thought she left in her car to go get something but when I waited a while and noticed she wasn't returning I then realized she was never there to begin with) but when I went to make the hallucination go away, I touched one of them and screamed, dropping the carton of chocolate milk which spilled on the floor.
I put the drying rack, cat's placemat, and toilet lid's cover back in their proper places. I then fixed the plug and managed to re-connect it to the pipe correctly. I also cleaned up the mess from the chocolate milk and got rid of the insects. After this, I went to bed.
The next morning, when I woke up, I couldn't find my cellphone and freaked out, thinking I had left it on the Metrobus the day I overdosed. I looked everywhere for the cellphone and called the Metrobus company but was told that no cellphone was turned in. It was at this time that I noticed one of my DVDs looked fatter than normal. I opened the DVD case and discovered that not only was the cellphone there but also the plastic bag and rubber band I was going to use to end my life. I also found the pack of Gravol under the couch. I put the Gravol in the garbage and threw the garbage out before anyone found out what I had done.
I am wondering if anyone else ever overdosed on Gravol before and experienced the same things I experienced. I read another story online, but it was only about someone's hallucinations and they were in the hospital (since someone found out what they did).
If anyone else has a story like mine, feel free to share, I don't judge nor do I care if someone did it to get high - that was not my intention.