Well I guess i finally decided to post something on the internet about it or try to get help.... this will sound strange to most but I'm currently having a real pain going through life. And i do know that i shouldn't . I don't have any particular problems and I generally should be living a "good life". While most of the people would feel normal living my life , for some reason , i can't understand but i do not...I feel like I'm totally oblivious to everyone. I just recently finished high school and I'm about to become an adult or so I would guess..
I've been feeling very suicidal for the past 4 years .. Like i said without really knowing why , I seem to always have something to get angry with or complain about... Although for the past 4 years I've been very cautious on not letting anybody see how I really felt .. I am starting to feel really down and to be honest I actually don't plan to live for very long ... I gave myself another month or 2 to live my last moments and atleast try to have fun and be "happy"... About a year ago i starting doing drugs, which has helped me greatly . Whenever I'm smoking canabis, I kind of feel "happiness" in the form of which I do not care what happens to me and I only live for the moment. Smoking regularily has led me to be a bit addicted to it as you would have guessed ...
As I said earlier , I don't really feel like being here anymore and I don't see why I would seek help, heck I do not even know why I'm creating a post about this since i highly doubt anybody would understand what I'm feeling ...
I kind of feel like i wasn't made for this world...
-From someone who hasn't told anyone and is about to end his days
I've been feeling very suicidal for the past 4 years .. Like i said without really knowing why , I seem to always have something to get angry with or complain about... Although for the past 4 years I've been very cautious on not letting anybody see how I really felt .. I am starting to feel really down and to be honest I actually don't plan to live for very long ... I gave myself another month or 2 to live my last moments and atleast try to have fun and be "happy"... About a year ago i starting doing drugs, which has helped me greatly . Whenever I'm smoking canabis, I kind of feel "happiness" in the form of which I do not care what happens to me and I only live for the moment. Smoking regularily has led me to be a bit addicted to it as you would have guessed ...
As I said earlier , I don't really feel like being here anymore and I don't see why I would seek help, heck I do not even know why I'm creating a post about this since i highly doubt anybody would understand what I'm feeling ...
I kind of feel like i wasn't made for this world...
-From someone who hasn't told anyone and is about to end his days