welcome to the club, man.
its been a few years now, right? so you are surly addicted and will have a hard to just giving it the kick.
if you are scripted and on these drugs for an actual cause; then sure, let things be. do NOT look at things as a negative and think you are addicted to drugs therefore you MUST GET OFF THOSE BAD DRUGS, right? well, you dont. its totally up to you. as long as you are taking the drugs as they are scripted and following rules, not breaking laws, and living your life the way life should be lived (yes, can be done/viewed so many different ways but you know what I mean).
I made my own thread a week ago talking about the same thing; wondering if me having 5 different scripts which I must take daily is ODD and should I consider myself an addict/junkie. but you know what? I dont. because I am happy and living my life normally. but before I came across all these scripted drugs I was a raging heroin addict and unable to live what we consider regular lives. so yes, these scripts saved my life
Suboxone
Gabapentin
Keppra
Xanax
Seroquel
The gabapentin and keppra are a must because I have a problem w/ seizures; this is non-drug related and I have been on these 2 for so many years that I cannot even count. the suboxone, well, speaks for itself. it saved me from ruining my life; I SHOULD have so much more than I do but I am happy to actually have some control of my life and not just throw it away like I once did to dope.
the last 2 - well, thats on me. for some, they may take them to get "fucked up". but I take them before bed because I have a racing fucking mind once I hit that pillow. my mind just races and races thinking of the the negatives I've done and "WHAT IF THIS", "WHAT IF THAT", etc, so I truly need something to knock me out and chill me the fuck out. however, I had a benzo addiction before and its tough to kick and sometimes seizures come about, which is why I am on those seizure meds (also because a true health problem I have). so I always try to keep a low dosage, between .25-1MG of the xanny and 100MG of the seroquel - ONLY IF NEEDED; sometimes I just pass out from a rough day at work and dont need shit.
you are only a junkie/addict if you want to be one; the drugs you take are up to you and the live that comes w/ those are based on how YOU want to live.
addiction or not, live a good life, do the right things, strive for greatness. yes, all sounds cheesy as fuck but believe it or not its true. I have some "serious" health issues and puts my life in question, so I realize what I have done in my past and how I lived it; so do what it takes to make you feel great, be on top, do the right thing, whatever. drugs or not, live a good life.
