Phil.McKeer
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jul 20, 2015
- Messages
- 905
So, it's been a week since I cut off my H habit. I used a rapid bupe taper and am down to 0.25mg today with no problems and feel like I can jump off at any time (but I have the privilege & luxury of continuing at this level for a couple more days and will take advantage of that). I've literally felt ZERO discomfort this entire time.
Even while I was using H I still lead a relatively healthy lifestyle. I exercised and ate decently well. During my rapid withdrawal, I doubled my exercise (my abs are sore as hell and highly visible), increased my intake of fresh fruits etc., and overall tried to maximize all the healthy stuff.
Today I was planning on going somewhere for a friend's birthday but it got canceled by said friend. Calling around and trying to see what everyone else is doing, it dawned on me at all my friends are married, have kids, responsibilities, etc. Which is partially why I was using H in the first place...it was acting as a surrogate friend, girlfriend, etc all rolled into one big Lotus Eater Machine. Basically, I was using H to fill a void inside me that I couldn't fill by any other means.
Now I'm facing the prospect of sitting around at my house with nothing to do. I suppose I can just go see a movie by myself. Or go to the local dive bar and try to chat up some girl (but my chances of success there are around 10% at best unless I lower my standards which I refuse to do). There's just so many times in one day I can rub one out and so much Netflix I can watch before cabin fever drives me nuts. I need to be outside and I need human company.
Can someone please chime in with what they do when they hit this wall? I'm already exercising, and taking care of all my responsibilities. Everything on my "to do list" was checked off over the previous week as I was withdrawing. Today was supposed to be a fun day with no responsibilities other than hanging out with friends and having fun but that all went to hell. What to do, what to do...
And don't worry, I couldn't get any more H even if I tried. Well, I could, but I'd have to go through two degrees of separation and I have no desire to do so. So don't worry about that.
Even while I was using H I still lead a relatively healthy lifestyle. I exercised and ate decently well. During my rapid withdrawal, I doubled my exercise (my abs are sore as hell and highly visible), increased my intake of fresh fruits etc., and overall tried to maximize all the healthy stuff.
Today I was planning on going somewhere for a friend's birthday but it got canceled by said friend. Calling around and trying to see what everyone else is doing, it dawned on me at all my friends are married, have kids, responsibilities, etc. Which is partially why I was using H in the first place...it was acting as a surrogate friend, girlfriend, etc all rolled into one big Lotus Eater Machine. Basically, I was using H to fill a void inside me that I couldn't fill by any other means.
Now I'm facing the prospect of sitting around at my house with nothing to do. I suppose I can just go see a movie by myself. Or go to the local dive bar and try to chat up some girl (but my chances of success there are around 10% at best unless I lower my standards which I refuse to do). There's just so many times in one day I can rub one out and so much Netflix I can watch before cabin fever drives me nuts. I need to be outside and I need human company.
Can someone please chime in with what they do when they hit this wall? I'm already exercising, and taking care of all my responsibilities. Everything on my "to do list" was checked off over the previous week as I was withdrawing. Today was supposed to be a fun day with no responsibilities other than hanging out with friends and having fun but that all went to hell. What to do, what to do...
And don't worry, I couldn't get any more H even if I tried. Well, I could, but I'd have to go through two degrees of separation and I have no desire to do so. So don't worry about that.
Last edited: